da' boy whisper's

moved :)

2007-10-26T09:01:00.000-07:00

fucccccckkkkk.
after waiting for so long, it had to be lost in the dillemma!
urgh.
):

i'd just shifted ,like finally =/
i need a place to rant/complain/destress.
ask me for my add!
(most of you'll alrdy know, hinthint!) =)

NOTE : i'd only give to TRUE friends onli :)
tsk, one sided peeps x))

MOVED!
i'll delete this add sooon.

juz may'b the same day.. i would be good enuff for you
how does it feels, having a piece of me gone :)

2007-09-10T08:34:00.000-07:00

life is just not right..
cos im nt accomplishing the stuffs i stated..
feeling uneasy.. and keep have the sense of envy..
oh dear.. weihong.. =//

let this drawing of mine.. do the talking..

my apologise if my drawing makes you wanna lose ur appetite =//

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
When you were born, you cried and the world rejoiced. Live your life so that when you die, the world cries and you rejoice.

chalet

2007-09-07T10:33:00.000-07:00

its been sometime that i din blog.. and finally im back from the class chalet which i've been looking forward.. it was kinda fun though.. despite the little amt of ppl.. gahh.. i have ache & pains all over.. but yea.. worth it la.. time to spread the joy..

im surprised that i can actualli stuff 6 set of clothers , daily needs , and some entertainment stuff.. in the usual semi havasack bag i carry to sch everyday.. =o meet up wif yujun and found out they were late =.= , when we supposed to meet at 1pm.. oh well.. they carry most of the burdens.. we shldnt have any reason to be mad at them.. besides its meant to have fun.. seriously when we gt there.. i was utterly disappointed to found out we had 1-storey chalet, instead of the 2-storeys ones.. =( oh well.. den we started in knocking up some poker.. yea i tried to teach them party poker.. i rather see they aint really interested in it.. or maybe.. its juz too hard to be handle.. cos it took me 1 week to learn from clips.. well i gt to learn new games! HEART ATTACK !! MURDERER !! im loving it =) i would love to teach my friends abt it one day =D lastly, i got some sexy scratches on my left leg from PEPSI COLA 123 , thx =(

1st day of BBQ was rather.. haha.. inedible? =o cos most of them are chao-ta.. well its ok =) i had my moments too.. wif the bad cooking i had.. ;x so din realli ate much.. instead.. i become the bartender of the class.. shake shake~ here comes ur drink lady =) hahas.. mixing ard wif softdrinks.. and found out some realli cant drink.. well its ok.. everyone has differnt limits.. nth to be ashame abt ;D smile guys! =)))and den followed TRUE OR DARE throughout the night.. seriously i nv saw it coming.. stripping , licking , tongue to tongue , eating chao-ta food .. sexually related question.. eww.. i shall nt name the rest.. =) i gt to give it to some of boys.. cos they realli bold enuff.. to do all those things.. claps *!! some secrets were revealed too.. hahas! its good la.. we get to noe each other better.. positively? hohoho ;x

din realli get to slp cos all were cram on the small bed.. i had to take the floor in the end.. my legs went numb serveral times.. gahhh =( had mac for breakfast.. but be4 that i drop a bomb in downtown east toliet.. came at the inapporaite moment.. grins* =( i accidently scalded my fingers when trying to get a class of water for myself.. cos all we were having is soft drinks and vodka.. 3 fingers went swollen.. ahh.. =(( the class took a rest and den went to pool.. under the influence of mine.. ;x i gt to say the pool table & cue there sarks like fk.. i feel bad raising up a bad idea to play pool there.. so i decided to treat them.. =) it feels great that i can give my class something.. den we head back and started bbq a little.. and rented 13 bikes.. we detour awhile till 6 and went back for more slp & eating.. while watching LIVE THE DREAM.. which made me wonder.. can s'poreans realli sing? =o hahas..

finally we head to our night cycle.. and we gt the wrong directions 2 times.. and went past the RED HOUSE.. creepy ~_~ ok den we started cycling out.. to pasir ris mrt.. and to the path.. 6.5km to bedok.. and den to eastcoast park.. costa sands.. another resort.. my legs gave way at 3/4 of the journey and it was alr 1am+.. i serously had the thought of getting a cab.. u guys go first.. i need to rest.. but as a class.. i dont wanna be tat ass.. well u noe.. so i pushed!! and finally reach our destination at 1.30am.. rest till 2am and we had to ride all the way back.. i felt wmy ass was utterly raped by the bike for 5 hrs.. the ride was apprx 25km back and forth.. and i seriously have to take my hat off for the two girls who actualli made it.. u girls simply rawrks! and nt forgeting the guys though cheers..!! and myself!! a huge breakthrough.. 25km+ ass rapeing ride passing midnight.. though t he journey was bumpy and i've gt bruises all over.. it made it so worth while.. i felt like a class =) feeling like no other.. =))

gt back our chalet at 4am+ and all rushing to bathe.. i actualli fell when i stood up.. had my body bang against the refrigirator.. i was stunned myself.. and the way ashyraf look at me.. are u ok? hahas.. i realli felt i need to exercise more liao..
it was quite a day for all of us.. and we slept and booked out till the nxt morning.. all of us appeared tired.. by the looks of our panda-like faces =D its been quite a chalet.. and i felt bad that brooks & celestine & charles & marcus & guo qiang is missing this..=(

looking forward for the nxt class outing.. =) always =)
back to maple & audi.. and more excerising & and obeying the targets i've set..
cant wait for some serious shopping be4 break ends.. till den..
time for bed.. nights guys XD

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
a slice of you, heaven =)

all planned ;)

2007-08-26T08:13:00.000-07:00

ahha! time to continue what i've started..

liked i said be4.. hurt a little, but now im so over it ;)
yea i've gotten so much over it, and i admit i nv felt being single is so wonderful..
being single is aint the worst thing afterall, it is judged by what kinda of situation ur in, the gravity of it.

struggling thru my exams for EG1 earlier.. and it was a breeze, nt realli, but strong pass ;) and went out wif yoyo tat day for pooling & lan, and meet up shortypiie. shes aint short =o, i rather feel shorter.. i shld call myself shortiiesauce, cos im juz 173cm.. or 174cm? wait i go get my ruler.. LOL ;x and yea struggle against EL-TECH, it was a storm this time, and i made a fatal mistake of wrong formula, 8 marks gone, i juz pray i dont retake that particular module.. though im a free thinker.. but i shld head to temple and pray someday.. ;)

and guys im back into maple, oh no, hahas couldnt expect it myself, but i had to return my debts, as a man of my words, and i restricted myself to abt 6hrs of maple, and the rest will be.. haha.. nt audi la.. i have planns for this hols.

as wad val has knocked me up into some ''food science'' , she shared wif me sth abt ph value in our body, and by neutraulising it, acidic causes pimples and alkaline would be juz wonderful to neutralise the ph in our body, so girls and boys, if u wan gradient skin & good complextion, heres the linked i would like to share ;D

http://www.trans4mind.com/nutrition/pH.html

i've count the days i've gt, juz nice 7 weeks from 2ml, my mini plann will progress, and tat includes..

-self bbal training
-swimming
-hit the gym
-running
-at least 2 fruits
-at least 1 vege
-3000ml of water daily
-no fried food (expecption from chalet)
-no soft drinks (expection from chalet)
-no sweetening stuff via ( chocolates, sweets )
-slumberland be4 the latest time of 11pm

well i guess u guys roughly had the idea.. and ya always i promsied myself this but i always failed to comply.. this time.. weihong! NI YI DING YAO JIAN QIANG DAO DE!

goodbye my $, cos i have no time to work.. promised myself that i will worked at yr2 hols.. cos i would be spending my nxt hol on PCT's.. XD

poor keely lost to THAT shawn ytd.. i gt to admit.. zhen ning can dance, cant sing, keely can sing, cant dance, shawn can sing, cant dance, benjamin can sing, can dance, why he out sia =/ bias votes :( oh well.. i prefered last yr batch de.. much nicer.. i sure some would agree too..

and yea chalet is coming.. and aiks.. i cant wait.. dun get me wrong..! nt for the food la.. cant wait for the excitement our classmates gonna throw up.. XD though is 15 ppl.. i hope chalet will be a good one.. ;D

i guess i'll love my hols.. :)

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
meanwhile.. i shall keep the cat in the sack.. :)

2007-08-25T10:32:00.000-07:00

hees.. hurt a lil, but now im so over it.. thx to my lovely peeps that have been showing concern to me :)

firstly to reply my tags,
to xMaoMi - aww onli? =.=
to Elaco - thx alot elaco, all along, i own u big! ;D
to Daniel - hahas daniel! Dont indulge me on DOTA :( noooo ;x
to Haeyo - yupps, nods back * ;)
to belin - yeas, i finally sorted it out ;D
to Snowyice - hahas, yea i am now ;)
to MaMa - thx so much, that listening ear, i've gotten ovr it, saucey is strong! ;D
to Harts - Thx for cheering me up ;D loves :)
to Darren - yea, one of the most right decisions made. ;)
to ViVi - ah, yes my frend ;D
to ZhuZhuJas - u see it like i do, now u see a stranger too =P linked! ;D
to LUV - yea, finally its over.i'll open my eyes BIG BIG in future ;)
to Saliheen - thx bro! ;D
to Koyuchi - thx! i believe i will ;)
to valerie - haha, its ok ;)
to Angel - thx for ur consolation words ;D
to Huiling - hahas, no need for salutes la ;x
to Purrps - haha, mayb not, single is good though ;D
to Winter - yea i will de ;) bu yao miss wo ;D
to Dada - ah, dada, aint fit my personaility ;x
to Jie - =.=''
to kaslyn - aww.. thx.. and mines 24/7 too ;D
to pumpkin - thx pumpkin ;D i've gt an extra pairs of ears now ;)
to clara - yea long post ;x
to Jianming - yars =/ but im fine now! ;) catch up some time bro! ;D
to Clara - yea.. defeiently a better girl, ahem, ya nt her ;D
to touran - huggies back* ;D
to Milknida - i dont mind, i need publisher first ;D
to woosa - haha, thx for the complement, dun have to cry =/ im fine now ;)
to kelly - hehes will de ;)
to qianhui & brooks - thx! yea, i always have u guys, classmates ;D
to milk - hahas yea, nice song, juz fits nicely for my post. ;)
to Haze - ya i dont hate u ;) thx for consolation words ;)
to Darren - catch ya in maple ;D
to Harts - misses ;)
to Pumpkin - awww.. u made my day ;D
to LEMON - hellos ;D
to Huiling - hahas dun emo ovr my blog song la! smacks *
to Touran - here here ! waves *
to LEMON - hahas ya, btm words from my heart ;x
to SEED - ha! its aways nice to see new ppl ;) yea cheer-ed up ;)
to MaMa - aiks * suddenly feel so heavy * ;x
to YanHan - here! blogged ;x

ok done replied wif all my tags, kinda late ler, i shall left the rest for 2ml,
off to bed*

i guess i'll love my hols, ;)

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
once they see it like i do, den they will see a stranger too ;D

its all over

2007-08-10T11:34:00.001-07:00

9th june, where miracles are born, birth of fairyland, joy & laughter.. a girl who im not quite sure of its background enlightened the soul of my darkness where deep secrets tortures me everyday.. She appears to be swt & kind, face of an innocent was dramatically attached to this boy..

The boy wif no love experience was frantically thinking of ways to express his love to her.. slowly and slowly she calms him down in wadever he does and finally he get holds of the situation.. Slowly he get to noe her that she comes from a complicated background as she steals sweetly one by one of his first..

Slowly they both meet tgt once in every 2/3 days and spent the day out tgt.. He,having some savings, used it almost all when they're tgt outside.. He ltr discovered that her parents dont support her finanically and ill-treats her wif practically no meals.. So being a nice and ditful bf, he make sures he satisfy her hunger and daily needs with the money he has..

Being understanding wif such a family situation she has, he brings her to her fav.spot Balmora to play lan.. He den started to noticed that she easily get fustrated and stress because of audi.. shocking.. everytime she misses a key or a fm.. one whole string of vuglarities.. smacks on the keyboard... and even surprisly a middle finger pops out infront of the computer.. That was what he din realli expect from her.. Well for him, he doesnt wans to have a vulgarity gf.. and he believes she will changed for him, for love, his sake.. instead it become conflicts..
he said fine and he let it go.. accepting the vulgarities she throws.. when she gets upset in audi.. she started to vent anger on me and ltrs blames hes nt a caring bf..
comparing him & others so called '' wonderful'' bf's.. She fails to admit that she's at fault.. and it finally reach a part.. she picks wrong guy for clubdance.. she say sry and he say its ok.. =) when he accidently pick wrong.. she scoulds and say i hate u.. after i have apologized.. not even understanding.. He cant take it.. having a urge to break.. She nows den come in and apologize for everything.. The softhearted him, forgived her.

He stays out late wif her, tills he makes sures shes home.. reaching home at almost past midnight.. and always getting scoulding from parents.. and once he was pangseh by her in the middle of newton.. after agree-ing to ton.. he sends her off by taxi and found himself left wif $17.. waving her goodbye he deeply misses her and cant wait for nxt meet up.. He noes meeting up is gonna cost money and he doesnt wanna risk of spending of cab fair home.. so he decided to stay out frm 3am - 6am where first mrt arrives, having the thoughts of her.. he wonders in the middle of the night, alone, wif fear.. and soon he starts running a fever.. helding on till 4 plus.. he finally calls a cab and head home, too sick to hang on, running high fever home & kana gan like fk by parents.. and not even a morning sms or call comes in by her.. he soon realised how unimportant he was.. how insecured he started to feel.. she let him wif tears.. he step up to her and question her.. and all she could say was sry..

He startes to feel something is wierd.. all the time she was checking his sms-inbox,outbox.. well he has nth to hide.. so he lets her to see all she wans.. now he starts to feel that shes hiding and he appoarches to check.. she lifts eyebrown and asked.. why ah? dont trust me? reluntant to let him see.. He feels even more insecured by the passing moment.. Once he went all the way to newton to balmora lan to find her.. and after he reach.. shes told him im going off wif one hour.. he went wtf.. wan meet me go off within 1 hr.. feeling so fked up & even more insecured.. He startes to suspect sth.. where even more where she having other ppl sending her home instead of him..

One day.. she was in bunk.. telling me she cant meet him up for the day.. where she was meeting cykick, huiling, feedray, starieangle.. they both switch turns to play wif him as hes playing at home.. feeling so confused and fked up, jealous of her ex was beside her,cykick. after that she started emo and vent anger cos she gt sofa seat.. venting anger on him once again.. feeling fked up.. she left.. and suddenly he saw huiling on9 in audi.. he goes over and asked.. Huiling where are u.. she answered ''home''he went wtf and called her and confrence.. he ltr found out feedray cykick starieangle were nt even in bunk, nt even wif her.. She lied.. minutes ltr.. Elaco called me and told me she say her holding a guy hand outside bunk.. immediately he went wtf again.. he called her and pranked her to play audi ltr.. expecting her to go parklane ltr.. wher the balmora lan has moved there.. he rushes down wif a cab down to parklane.. and finally witness her wif another guy.. wif his own very eyes.. He steps up.. and walk to her.. ask she turns behind he saws him, a guy who has been taking in mistreats by her wif addition of lies while he treats her like a princess..

he turns and walk away.. noeing its the end of us.. she ran over and pull his hand.. he said.. ''wo ba ni dang bao, ni ba wo dang chao!'' shoving her hands away.. unable to believe his first bgr was so screwed having his feelings shared over 3 guys at the same time.. being 3-timed for fking 3 weeks, all the feelings were fake.. tears started to roll down her cheeks.. saying her life is jinx.. her life is cursed.. wif this kinda of parents.. treat her like trash.. This foolish guy.. has unknowly falls into her clutches cos he had fell too deep for her as she steals everyfirst one by one when they meet up.. she says that her ex onced 2-timer her and she wanted to take revenge on guys now, having flings, 2-3timer other guys.. He decided to gave her a 2nd chance.. Himself alone, believes in 2nd chances.. Everyone has a reason to see light.. for her too.. trying to be the special one to change tides for her.. guide the road for her to heaven..

7promises were made, faith, trust, loyalty, no hiding, no lies, thrifty-ness and love. She was forgiven.

The nxt day they both went out.. and everything seem to be fine.. tills end of the day.. she called her ex to send her home instead of me.. where she told him.. her so called ''frend'' Feeling fked up & jealous, he headed home, 45mins bus ride as usual.. reaching home and found his gf at audi.. he question.. u at where? can play audi at ur bro hse meh? i tot u said u cant even use the com there.. She started to get angry after i started to question her.. and soon conflict started.. she say take clothers frm his hse.. cannot ah..? fine.. and 15mins ltr.. she was still in audi.. and asked.. take clothers need 15mins wan meh.. she say wads ur problem? our hse are juz opp. he said.. ok fine.. u go ur bro hse use hse fone call me.. and i'll believe u.. she burst into anger and say.. fine la u dont believe den we break la.. and left the room.. he spam her fone and cykick(her-ex) hse fone.. they both dont pick up my calls.. she said.. i will be going home soon.. dont believe me break up.. he called huiling and ask from her a favour to call cykick and in the end he found out she was staying overnight at cykick hse(her-ex) how pissed he was.. after hearing that.. lieing & lieing to her bf.. he have been sick for near 3weeks.. and its all because of her.. taking his strength everyday.. and coughed blooded.. After confrencing wif his close peeps.. he had decided its the end of relationship.. which struck her that she quickly came down and check on me in the morning.. come check from wad..? he says.. all u wan is audi.. go back audi la.. she keep says shes sry and would nv mistreat and lie to him every again.. still loving her.. he gave him one more of extra chance..

Things appear to be fine for awhile.. soon, he started to notice she keeps uses his fone to call other people.. even in the presence of him, he feels so pissed, not even concern how much it cost, his feelings, and soon, hes started runnin on low funds, and unknowly for her she keeps spent on stuff thats aint worth it.. He doesnt work, onli supporting himself and hers, both expenses by its daily allowance of $10.. He hopes that her gf could understanding hes doing the best to make sure shes dont live in hunger.. day by day.. he feels the burden came bigger & bigger crushing.. worrying of everyday overspending.. He has to skip meals and eat the one of the cheapest food u can find in his sch.. and for her sake.. when meeting up.. she ask to buy this and that.. spending his money like her money.. and after that.. she pushes her stuff towards him, having him carrying everything and she carrys nthing.. enjoying every moment.. once she pleads for a yogurt lefting him wif not even 10cent.. ltr she grabs a magaizine and lies on the side of the wall and read.. where he holds everything standing beside her doing nth.. sch bag,lappytop,her bag,drinks, everything wif him and nth on her.. he says.. i think im more den ur maid den ur boyfriend.. she says sry.. and promises i hold the stuff nxt time..

days past.. trying hard to save of the upcoming birthday celebration & 2nd month anniversary.. it was juz like any other day.. wif worryness of her gf will she be cheating on him again, and will he overspent again.. its hard for him to everytime to gain back the trust where he gives her when everytimes she has been caught red-handed from lieing.. it was sleepless night for weeks.. this poor him. this happening day.. she told me she was sick and was unable to meet me.. he went like oh.. i'll come to ur doorstep and bring panadols ltr.. she say no need.. mommy bring her to see doc.. she called and says im in clinic now,mom brought her.. ltr dun come im going to slp.. he calls after his dismissed from sch.. shes fails to pick up.. he calls her hse.. happening her mom pick up.. i asked.. is she at home.. she says no.. he was utterly shocked.. i asked.. did u brought he to see a doc.. she say no ah.. she slp till 3pm happily and went out.. after hearing that he gt pissed & fked up.. that he has been lied over AGAIN! he took the shot.. took a 1hr ride all the way to douby ghaut parklane lan shop.. and finally he reach and guess wad.. he say her playing audition in front of her v.eyes again.. smiling at the com.. he gave her the wtf & its over face.. and he left.. she rushes out of the lan and chases him.. and held him.. but this time.. he turn his head back wif raging eyes and shoved her hands off wif no mercy.. too many times u have lied to me.. its over.. she held and he shoved till the entrance and esclator.. he finally break free and headed home.. wif pissed, anger, disappointment..

endless calls started coming into his fone.. he too @#$%^& to pick up any.. she begs and she begs for one last chance.. saying that she will quit audi for the guy she loves.. a promise to him.. she say would do anything for him.. one last chance.. prove that shes the one for him.. after a period of confrencing.. still loving her.. the one last chance was given.. as she gave him heart shape cake, folded stars and doggy pushie as present and followed by flowers the nxt day for appreciation of him fogiving her.. she promised getting to job at holidays tgt to share our burdens..

looking at sincerity.. she's forgiven.. once again.. so hanging is days tgt wif $10 allowance and extremely hard to save.. he tries to make sure she understands the situation shes handling wif..

few days back he managed to finally save some money.. where finally he could wad the movie they both promised to watch tgt.. having past bad experience.. he noes she sleeps most of the movies in cinema.. so he asked u btr dont slept in this one.. she denys and say she doesnt want to watch.. fails to content wad he have been expecting to watch.. fine den.. he brings her to have dinner.. they both have same equal of dinner.. thinking that they didnt have dessert for a long time.. he suggested lets get dessert.. and minutes ltr.. one of the cheapest dessert was on my side of table and one of the most expensive dessert was on her side of table.. he went silent for the moment.. nt even aware wad situation is he facing now.. handling 2 person expenses for near 7 weeks.. fine.. he let it go since she complains she didnt have dessert for a v.long time.. after 20mins.. she asked.. can i have slurpee? he went wth? we juz ate and u want sth again.. she plead i nv drank slurpee for more den 2 yrs.. please? he agrees, u noe he had no chioce.. but onli after sometime ltr.. they walk pass a icecream stall and she asked.. we have icecream ba.. den soon, she ordered.. after that he suggested lets go 5th floor to see lan.. long time nv visit and see ler.. reach there and she saw her frend.. she went in and talk for 10mins.. having the bf holding her bag standing outside.. waiting.. she ltr came out.. and pass him her icecream and went in again and talked another 10mins.. obviously.. he feels so extremely pissed.. den she came out and all she say was sry la.. she drags him into the lan.. and agree of lets ard in land.. she stands inside the lan like 20 seconds and say.. lets go.. where her boyfrend haven even see a single thing yet.. $%^&* tats wads he feeling.. and all she could say.. is sry..

fewdays back.. she agrees to meet him to watch wcg tgt.. but in the presense she goes there to support her ex-bf(lordkanenites) he was like wtf.. every u mistreat me till now.. u still even dont care ur bf feelings and want to support ur ex.. fine he says.. ignoring the pain she have dealt to him.. woke up and planning to make breakfast for her to cut cost.. found her in her gan-bro hse having breakfast.. so the swt idea was dropped.. told her to meet at 11.30am.. went down 45mins bus ride.. and she was late wif her gan bro for more den 1hr.. on the fone he says.. can u pls have more time management in the future? she started say.. wah lao.. stop scoulding me.. after that she says.. im leaving at 4pm.. go high tea ltr.. he went wtf.. i came so far for this little? put u as first piority for all times yet u say u pangsehing me ltr at wcg(suntec).. he gt extremely pissed and went sch.. since there was sch ltr.. not even a call or sms she gave after i left infront of her v.eyes.. he noes hes nt impt anymore.. den she finally calls & sms till he finallys picks up.. shes says again.. sry.. and he again.. soft-hearted.. forgive her again..

she appeared to be sick the nxt day.. wif asthmetic and it was impossible for her to walk out.. so they both din meet.. the nxt day.. she say she wan see him.. as he going to wcg ltr.. says take cab to suntec and i'll pay for u.. she comes and they watch.. he is a more to a cs guy.. and he wans to watch at the cs booth.. and she say pei her.. fine he pei her.. and after that fifa finals.. she say sian.. so she ask me pei her.. he said.. i pei u all the time.. why cant u pei me.. she say im girl leh.. he went wth.. where gt guys pei girls girls dont pei guys.. she ltr say argh im sry.. he fogives cos he didnt want to add pain to her since she sick and even surpise her to bring her to lan.. played and enjoy.. end of the day.. he said.. 2 weeks to exam.. u have to study now.. if u dont.. u gonna fail.. den she say.. u keep tieing me down.. how can i fking concentrate on studying for my exams, i cant even play audition cos of u, he went wtf, exam period u wan study, when u have the time to play, u vent anger and the pain i get, now i bring u play once in a while to enjoy, i still get complains by u, all u wan is audi, when will start be independence and work to lift the burdens of ur bf? she answered, 21. He went dumbfounded, are u going to have ur boyfriend to support u for the rest of 4yrs wif $10 per day? She say, i still have my gan-bro wad, he went wtf.. she complains even more that hes intruding her privacy, nt allowing to play and reading her inbox, he went, hello? if im intruding? why would i bring u to lan in the first place, 2ndly u have lied to me so much for the past 7 weeks and i had nv lied to u, not even 1! obviously i need time to trust u back, dont u even let ur boyfriend have time? she said straight, NO! He went triple WTF! He put down the fone and confrence everything he undergoes wif his mum, and his mum, straight tell him to break.. no point having this girl.. i wont allow..

the nxt morning he called and asked, did u think abt the words u said? still sure that ur right? wanting to give her a chance cos he found its pityful to let go after something he has much loved so long.. she say, nth, i still thinking u dun let me play audi is wrong, its my life, what can u do? After hearing these.. he knew its over.. after he had delicated so much in her life.. He hear this kind of stuff.. and said.. lets meet up.. and talk if not we will blow up over the fone again.. her gan-bro called in.. and he asked.. i din go sch 2day.. lets meet up and talk tgt.. immediately he was put onhold.. she & her gan-bro talked.. and unhold him back.. she said.. he nt free 2day.. infact he hates u.. dun wan meet u.. He went.. he has his mouth.. if he hates me.. why not let him say for himself.. comeon? dont have the need to stuff words in his.. so he said.. fine.. den talk on the fone den.. and imeediately.. he was put onhold again.. and den unhold.. and she said.. he dont even wann talk to u.. he went WTF again.. he asked.. gabrielle.. all i need is juz some time.. talk.. can? immediately she cut in and say.. Kor... Korrrrrr!!! gan bro said.. ok 5mins.. and she cut in.. WAD!!! He went WTH!!! even 5mins to talk wif ur gan-bro also cant? She say i niao.. He went wtf.. i supported u so hard spending so much u say i niao? and thing blow off.. and he cant take it.. FINEEEE!!! U WAN TO AUDI, U WAN TO PLAY, U WAN TO ENJOY, U WAN TO SLACK, U WAN PPL SPON-FEED U FOOD, U WAN MONEY, U DUN WAN STUDY, U DUN WAN WORK.. OK FINE! I CANT LIVE WIF THIS KIND OF GF,LETS FKING BREAK UP! off he goes cut off the fone *

he den contacts elaco,mama,valerie and all 3 agree break up is the best chioce

4hrs ltr she sms, ''dear my bag lost, how?''

he went, we break up ler why do u still dear me? thinkin *

at night, she called him, at mama hse, and say if she can have another chance, say she promised him, i will tahan 2 weeks and study well, and enjoy the rest of the 2mths hols tgt, he having ups & downs, didnt say anything, and den he said, dono, anything else? she said nth, and the fone was put done, he started thinking abt wad she said abt her promised, mins ltr, a sms came in, mama told him that she was playing auditon in her room right now, and thats tells it! hes cfm to break up and wif no patch! cant even imagine having this kind of situation, still can play audi..
minutes ltr, she sms say she went off alr, juz play awhile, he went ah? 1hr ltr mama called, and said, JUZ NOW SHE WAS STILL PLAYING AUDI! HAD ASKED ME TO FAKE UP A LIE TO TELL THAT SHE WENT HOME! he went double WTF/WTH, now still wan lie, lols its the end, karen was witnessing everything, and agrees to be his witness,

day where it comes to the final meetup, he asked, tat day did u went home after u put down the fone? she said, ya! surprisely, she still lies! and he take out his hp and show her the sms mama sms, she went silent, u did play after u put down the fone din u, she cany deny no more and she said ya! He left wif one concluding sentence, u had nv treasured me in ur life, rite, lies after lies, come on, dont u deny? she say ya, i din treasure u, he says, tats say it den, from now, w/e probs, u die u starve u sick dun ever contact me, cos im nt going to help u anymore, she said, cant we juz be frends? He say why? u dont even treasure me in ur life when i treated u so well, why do i have a reason to treasure u as my friend, she had nth to say and juz said, fine i respect that, He said, thanks for the memories.. and there, he walks off, end of a disaterous 7 weeks & 5 days of relationship

Thx to those people who have came and read the story i've wrote.. Thx for being patient wif me, i needed listening ears and people to lift me up on my feet =/

Special thx to those who helped me in the state of probs in my bgr
1)Elaco
2)Huiling
3)DD_xiaomama
4)HorniieGurl
5)Valerie

without u guys, i proberly still stirlling in the deep hole i've fell into..

to her:
all i wan is my life back, so pls if ur reading this, i will appreacite if u juz leave me alone, and i alr left urs.. good luck in ur endoveours..

to those who's in the circle of her friends:
its ok if u choose to believe her, but im sure all this 7weeks and 5days, i have been the extremely good bf to her, well if u dont u can refer to my frends if u believe, even the aunts & my class mate sees everything.. well i aint want anything from her.. and i would realli appreciate if u juz MYOB, thx in advance =)

everything i've undergo shall be kept as past,
all i wan now is my normal life back,
both, free now =)

sincery bottom of my heart, 7weeks & 5days,4109words.

waqwaqsaucey*

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
thx for the memories.. even they were'nt so great..=)

2007-08-10T08:55:00.000-07:00

ups & downs

2007-06-14T07:32:00.000-07:00

living in life of insecure-ness, i bet those cloeses to me noes.. =/
still, living the life, dun worry abt me, wont do any thing silly.. =)

TO MY DEAREST SWEET-HEART :

rmb our 1st date ? ;D awesome memories isit it? =)
seriously i had to agree wif u.. i have alot of things..
in common wif you.. like so concidence? or isit fate? ;D
and my piglet ;D did u gave it a wash, i bet it stinks ;x
u simply muz die, after stealing so much of my first ;x
smacks* ;x made me fell hard for you..
that v.first u lie ur head on my shoulders..
i feel blessed at one shot imediately.. ;x
holding ur hands down orchard.. like i nv want that feeling to end..;x
yea u've gt the extrodinary way.. u made me feel different.
like i nv felt im wanted in someone's life.. memorable day isit it? =)

the day u vented your anger on me.. yea im hurted..
but i do understand u have ur own problems..
if i had argue back.. u would be in a more painful & difficult position..
so i had to swallow down the pain.. its awful seriously..
but when ltr after u've cool-ed down..
u apolgize.. =) which is sth i would be dying to hear from you..
nth to pai sei abt or sorry abt.. at least u've noe ur mistakes..
and im so proud and happy for having a girl like u.. =)
we are strong.. aint we?

2nd date.. tremendous exprience u gave me.. i dont feel much of any
uneasy-ness being ard you.. though its the 2nd..
its makes we feel we have been for yours..
like so compatible.. isit it? idk if u feel the same way..
holding ur hands.. strolling around is like precious moments to me..
and it was indeed an extrodinary ocean 13 wasnt it?
well gt to say one part.. the 1st u had nose bleed.. ;x
i muz be too hawt for u.. ;x lols uber BHB. but i wonder if u see..
how meticulous i was.. =) the 2nd ocean 13 was awesome too..
another first ;x and for u too.. girl u blown me away <33
ur smile while we were in pets planet.. so swt..
its like hard to see u smile until tat cheerful..
tats like a place i would consider a place where no ''fan naos''
are in ur head.. pets diverts attention and clams a person down..
dont u think so? =) and oh alexist was tasty =)
and shocking i realli din noe theres lan & pool in JP.. ;x
u surprised me ;D well im too outdated ;x

the day u gt angry cos of i chance in 188 d-8..
well im sorry when u asked me nt to chance..
cos the lan music was too loud. and if u notice somtimes i cant
catch wad ur saying.. but still.. though we were ok now..
i juz wanna mention im sorry abt that =) <33

supposing i was to catch the last train.. but i saw the way u wanted me to stay..
so yea.. i missed it.. and yea.. congrats for getting the top..
tat u always wanted all along.. npcing was great isnt it? =)

yea after that u used my fone to call cykick to settle their stuffs..
honestly speaking i was jealous while staring at space..
well jealously isnt a bad thing rite ? after all its for u ;D
yeaps.. and u happening have that headache.. unable to ton wif me..
so yea its ok.. so yea u had to go..
i didnt wanted u to go.. but yea have too..
haha cant describe how i would have missed you, agains.. ;x
so ya i notice abt the $ i spent out wif u.. yea i had to be thrifty..
having the thought of extra moments wif u.. i planned to save that
extra amt of taxi fare which could be juz 1/3 or 1/4 of our date..
all thoughts were on u.. wondering along the streets of newton..
having u in my head.. and another part feeling scare cos it was so dark..
and only sounds of taxis.. and i saw this 4 digit bus pass infront of balmora..
4 digit, zomg =S i started to feel chills =S soon i gt feverish..
and it was 4am + .. bth and i had to call a cab.. =/
gt scoulded in early morning like fk cos of semi-ton on 2nd date =/
its worth it =) and yea kinda high fever 38 degrees +
sms u at 1 and gave u one warmth morning , but i get haha, im in audi.. =.=
okies nvm yea and u din sms and i question why.. and well u said ur onli 5mins..
awake.. nvm.. well and sms and u din reply so i went audi to find u..
well had no idea wad u called me a flirt.. ya i noe its nt u ler..
and all i could suspect is someone i login in ur acc to ruin our relatiosnhip..
ur char had vulgars on me in late afternoon.. and lies of u went to sch..
well still its nt u.. so dont have to worry..
but when i was been fausly accused for flirt.. i tried to reach u..
but ur fone was unreachable.. i worried.. 30 + fone calls in.. hse calls &
countless sms.. i hope u do see how worried i was for u..
i was like wtf when u sms me back.. ''what? , you wan u call me''
well nvm i called. and i told u wads happening...
at least u believe in me.. im so happy.. =) <33
when u came on9 and sent me the siggy u made..
i love it seriously =) reallis nice ;x
den ltr u ask me to audi.. and of cos i would love to pei u..
but i was on the fone wif elaco. she was being the listening ear for me..
if i suddenly cut off and yea i would be bias..
all i needed is juz a few moments to finish.. and i tell u..
once im done i come directly to u.. u were like.. nvm i gt cykick..
den start comparing me wif cykick.. its like wtf kies..
i have been reaching u all day.. if ur great frends had lend u a fone call..
i woulndt be tat worryin that much.. well its over rite =) we are still ok..
dun let audi things to ruin our relationship , aint worth it rite..
baby i love you, now and forever..

every good things come to an end. but it wont be an end when ppl gives in.
and onli after givin-ins.. there will be a little to be expected in return..
thats the part and parcel of life. life would be happier, isint it?

stolen first holding hands, first hug, first kiss, cheeks/lips,
stolen heart. ;x
you gt me hypnotised for real.
showing all my loves & care.
dont them them for granted ;D
true to life, true to me,
baby tats the way to be..
love you, yours truely.
<33333333333333333333333

whens our 3rd date ? =D

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..

words.. come way bottom of the heart.. baby all here.. =)

_l_

2007-06-03T00:04:00.000-07:00

to so called '' GOOD '' BF D2D~PfKing :

im so certainly sure that u will be visiting my blog.
woah add me in msn for u scould my gf bytch?
think again.. i del everything abt her..
and she pm my gf? and ltrs post up im a loser?
if i cant say anything back its no logic?
and pls.. nt say i cannot pm.. i alreadi get rid of her
from my life.. cant she juz leave me and my gf alone?
shes talk my my gf its ok.. den come out wif false conclusion..?
wad say all her post was abt me? i wonder who is the uber thick-skin
after all.. and u as her bf dont even let me speak.. and yao ting me
for apology? i nv talk to her and i get that kind of post saying im loser?
and wads more abt me? i indicted i wont change any of her..
and still wan say i nt gd bf or wad? im sry the words u try to hurt me
or make me feel im an ass, well its aint hurting any..
and i asummme ur one yr older den me..
and u dun even noe the meaning of conceal msg and say i talking nonsense..
wad a joke.. look i dont wan anything frm her and more or less from u..
if u need lollipops i can give u one ^^
and get of my back.

bullshyt

2007-06-02T19:29:00.000-07:00

alot of things surprising le happened.
thinking its a pretty good time to let it off my chest in blog.
since its weekends.

i guess its the onli place that could hear me now. right hear.

im happily attached to nikki. she way much sweeter from my ex-.
thats realli sth nt many woman can do w/o feeling paisei or wat..
something i do admire & appreciate frm her..
but sometimes she do make me feel different..
i noe our problems are over..
but do give me a chance to let it off my chest..
like when i accidently pm the wrong msg to u..
and u get fustrated.. hmph at me..
u noe i din mean it.. im handling pms..
and like i said.. accidently kies..
and when i type >< , i doesnt mean i dont wan ur huggs* or muacks*.
the >< refers to the msg be4 u huggs* and muacks* me
, EG if i miss badly , i will go like ><. okies..
i hope u dun jump the false conclusion tat i din wan it..
baby i appreciate it <3
yea and rmb abt the hoping room,
well im foloing u ard. and yea.
when u take ur leave, shes like a wind.
do let me have a chance to say okies lets go.
by juz by poof-ing liddat everytime.. i will zz de..
and i have to catch up wif
u again in another room.. and i hope juz when we talk.
i hope u could let me finished my sentences first..
ya nt cutting half way.. all this is juz how i felt..
but yea im not holding u up anymore.. like i figured out ytd.
im shld stop changing anyone right now,
i could have hurt someone along the way unknownly..

im was dumbfounded when u brought it up
when u had the thought of breaking up.
the word of breaking up is so hurtful..
Has it realli gone tat bad..
i guess i had made my changings for u to extreme..
but from wad i saw was juz few slight changes..
but yea.. upon on the slight changes..
its nv meant to be imediate and all my intentions were good..
well i figure myself when u knock me to light
when u point i keep wan to change ppl.
and i guess thats true..
tats why im sincerly sry abt trying to change u..
well its up to u if u wanna changed or not..
i dont wanna take the high-road of asking u to
do tat again, i dun wanna risk our relationship anymore..
but im telling u now..
if i ever goingt to feel zz, pls do step up okies..
like the least u can do. =)
and the same goes for u. =)

all the things upon i said are after squeezing my brain juice hard..
for the pain i brought to u, im sincerly sry.

to the bytch if ur reading this;
haha who says im thick skin? and all the post are for me?
i rmb clearly i told nikki theres one post u had let ur toy-ing me up?
and did u said all the posts are for me? u make me laugh-ed.
hahas i think skin? on the fact i dont even care abt ur bf?
like i would have give a damn on that?
this is my blog and u can MYOB if u dont wan to read it.
u can save ur stories for whoever u wanted to.
and upon this i suggest why not
sharing ur 21 days norton anti-virus? ;D
moron.

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
baby, im sorry.

2007-05-26T22:03:00.000-07:00

major blow out!.. argh.. ok im letting the stuffs i felt..
over the days.. shld say over the times..
i feel im being misused. misplaced.
ok everything is in aud okies..
haiis..

its like.. everything i do for the person..
he/she has xing shi.. they come to me..
and yea i console.. give them my listening ear..
and then solve their problems.. guidance..
they happy and im happy too..

and after they are ok.. they juz seem to 4gotton me..
like in their eyes.. am i juz ur shoulder to lean on?
i feel so darned used. argh.. why cant u guys just learn..
to apprecaite things are given to u.. tmd!
so darn taking me for granted..

everytime i login.. i found my self left out from my buddies..
they usualliy will be in their own clinque..
this feeling is like no other..
when i take the inactive to bump onto them..
wad juz 3 lines? HELLOS SUACEY ;D <333 ?
and simi sai ? after that im stoning like glass in ur room?
dont u have sth tat we can start off and talk?
its like so dam one sided frends..
tmd!

when i faces problems.. buddies wun step up and ask.
heys wads wrong? =S , hey i've make it darn obvious..
pulling a long face.. for full day..
and till 4-5hrs.. no pms.. im juz glass to u guys?
and the pms ltr are like.. hey u ok? uhhuh.. ?
ooo... orh... zzz.. are u guys mentally dumb enuff to console?
i believe when u guys were down.. my consolelations for u guys
were more den expected.. like why could i get a least the minium
consoles to ease my pain?

and it hurts more after my cosolation i gt .. u fall back into the same mistakes again..i have to mention this. realli.. i spent my time saying that..
juz to clear ur mind and make sure u have the clear vision of wads going on..
nv fall back again.. and now.. nxt time u gt the same problem u better dun find me..
if not i confirm will make ur tears taste like shyt! i had enuff.

i have no one to run too.. even though. proberly they were nel & york3..
but once again.. they are couples.. and it feels sucky when they shld have noe..
im alreadi nt ok.. and yea.. qing re infront of me.. when im zz alreadi..
makes me even more zz , like over the edge..
well i dun wan to make this sounds awful..
but the marriage u 2 guys had earlier.. i was happy for u 2..
well i dislike dawnnie from that pt she said i was the someone keep blame for cang missing keys..
like wtf? i play wif u guys so long.. and it was so darn obvious..
it was meant to be a gesture.. and its like the first gesture i made wif u 2..
they juz rip it off? i even had ecomotions to make it obvious..
so tat dumbers can even see its juz a tease..tmd !
and then dawnnie came in for the obs in nel & york3 weddin..
and obviously im darn zz alreadi.. well i spam zz earlier.. to hint pls dun call her..guess wad u called.. and theirs the spoiler..
i left the room. and i pm both nel & york3.. grats in advance..
all i get is juz thanks? fk it man.. wouldnt u 2 go like..
aww dun liddat le? pls come back? gimme some face?
i clearly recalled york3 mentioned that i was her closest in aud..
nel , juan , dearie & me.. and yet becuz of dawnnie u juz let me on my own..
in ur big occasion.. wtf man. i feel so fking left out once again..
and the words u said.. i gonna have doubts.. from this point..

i juz wan a close clique.. true friends.. maybe her?
and juz some fun..

is that too much? =(

i had enuff.. im mia-ing saucey & del-ing buddies one by one..
onli a small amt will be kept..

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
goodbye. saucey'

2007-05-25T06:41:00.001-07:00

fk man.. my blog still gt problem.. idk why my font so wierd!
like windows 95 font! i do need help in this.. fkin irratating font!=(

judging from wad i wrote in my previous post..
wahahs i lied.. my 2ml was 5 days ltr ;x
well im lazy =/

lots & lots of things happen..

i feel that im losing connection wif my classmates..
well still.. strong feelings.. strong one..

my blog has this font problem.. dam irrating.. squarish de..
and when i wanna italic.. lots of craps come out.. argh!

no cca still for me.. oh gawd..

went pool wif wilson , brooks , marus & shinzi..
bukit timah plaza just beside our sch..
well its ex.. but we had fun though..

failed my c.programming prac test 2day..
and i think im falling my lessons.. games too much..
i cannot repeat modules.. have to mug ler ,
2 weeks to common test! =/

aud.. hmm.. well still say.. kinda cold..
argh!.. haiis.. i dun wan any one sided frends.. =(
so goes for rl..

argh lots of thoughts ahead.. =/
small recap of me anw.. moodswings =(

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
days are getting worst.. =(

2007-05-20T07:22:00.000-07:00

blog gt prob , shall blog 2ml.

2007-05-19T08:56:00.000-07:00

Create your own Friend Test here

2007-05-15T08:26:00.000-07:00

sry for those been visited my blog.
i didnt update my blog, like ahhhs.
actualli alot of things to say..
but everytime i juz cant see why i wont write them up..
i wonders..

few things that has recently come to my notice..

im started to feel that ppl talking on my back..
i think i noe who.. but yea.. no point to jump into conclusion..
when i had no proof.. besides.. is it worthy to make it clear now?
i have 3 yrs down the road wif them..
juz a wierd feeling..

den the person who used to call me eyecandy..
was like vanished from my life.. geee..
i wonder wads gotten into you..
though i think we pass by each other in game..
im didnt want to bring this up cos i tot we still would be cool.
but u made me pissed 3 times..
i wonder wads so hard in checking out for me outfits..
its juz 5mins? and u were are , eh busy..
just so you noe.. if this goes on , yea , imma del u off..
i dun wan any one sided frends.
cos most of them ar hurting all along..

i feel cold.. like everytime login aud..
buddies have their own batch of frends..
playing wif theirself..
guildmates? not united.. all playing tgt ..
on their own in differnt channel
and im leave alone.. in my channel.
yea.. and i dun have her ,yet
finding one tat realli fits. hard. realli hard.
pieces dont fit , =S
aud is starting to give me pain den pleasure..
without notice , picture of me quited aud.
flash across*

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; someone please come and take this pain away..

2007-05-07T07:51:00.000-07:00

ok nv blog these few days.. so lets get started wif stuffs =)
ok friday.. np bbal selection.. went wif brooks & his frends..
it was to be 5.30pm start , turns out to be 6.15pm.. sians..
waste time..saw alot of good players.. yea.. den the np coach was tongwhye de..
lols my frends coach.. he v.comedy.. but also guai lan.. lols ~_~
classify us into differnt type of groups.. and do lay-ups.. 8 zi xing.. 3 vs 3 full court..
he pick out 5 players.. all are like cos of height went in..
i find it so ridiculars.. , zz i pack & went home..=S
spent my sat & sun , auding =S zomg audi addict..
like finally ;x didnt went bbal , dono y.. ~_~

painful accident 2day.. after i boarded the 154 to sch..
was walking towards the back of the bus..
since the seats was empty.. like hardly gt seats unoccupied..
so i happily walk towards the the back seat..
and decided to sit on the left of the bus.. slanted my legs into 45 degrees position..
and slowly move my legs in.. wifout notice..
i felt a piercing pain on my left leg as i move in..
it got more painful by the miliseconds, argh , heck and move my left leg in..
and OUCH , V.OUCH.. i felt my left leg was slice by something..
i held my left leg hard.. feeling numb alreadis..
seconds ltr.. i start see blooding coming out.. and started to drip..
i was , kinda #$%^&*&^%$.. i lowerd my head and surface the seats..
and found.. a sharp needle like metal was pertruding from the seats..
and i cant believe it actualli pierce and drag acrooss my skin for 10cm +
where i gt my cut..+ acorss my leg..ouchy , seriously ouchy..
i had to use tissue to stop the bleeding , 4th tissue.. and abit bloddy hand..
i was so relief , i didnt had to stich.. luckily the wound wasnt tat bit..
now i feel so %^&*()#$%&* having this ugly scar on my leg..
its gonna be weeks be4 i can peel it off.. aww , hurts =S

stay back and did the c pro hw.. thx to leeying , brooks , qianhui , wilson , daniel..
p.s. i went home first cos no 1 was traveling same bus route as me =( p.s.

painful leg , haiis.. tatas =S

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; shyt pain, livin' my life*

2007-05-02T08:53:00.000-07:00

woke up 6am+ in daze.. and thinking gt sch..
while i was walking towards the wash room..
i reliased it was odd week =) and i dun need to attend the morning lecture..
wakaks.. im overjoyed.. cos i was exhasted ytd =/
went back to slp.. smiling =) , im nuts *

pratical was much better 2day..
cos it was shorter , much shorter.. & when i got home..
it was onli 4+pm.. wakaks.. spent rest of the day aud-ing..
and i sorted out stuffs agains..

im gonna del those buddys , who doesnt even say hi?
talks? buddy for wad.. waste my space.. zz
on the look for more worthy buddies =)
love me for wad i am.. and hate me for all you want..
bring it bytch , im prepared for anything.

i think its the best i completely get rid of u in my life..
i dun wan those hurtful memories come rushing into my head..
everytime i see u , things juz came squeezing into my head..
i hate it.. and i hate u..uber caps.. I HATE YOU !
i dono y i have to say so..i reminise over & over agin.. bus rides home..
after how you toyed me ard.. and u dun even feel bad abt it..
i seriously think u dun even deserve friendship from me..
u juz taken too much of my life.. absolutly too much..
what goes ard comes ard.. one day u will get those pain..
worst den mine, co-double co-triple..
u will get that ,
this i swear, bytch.

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; bytch , curses * & hatred * i will be dieing to watch you suffer in agony pain , one day =)

labour day

2007-05-01T07:56:00.000-07:00

exhaseted from sch , and finally its labour day..
woke up early ! i had no idea why i woke up early..
and its holiday =S gosh , im nuts..
im feeling stronger , den ytd , wakakas..

spent my entire labour day , aud-ing..
and yea woohooo , i reach my first ever 1m ^^
im happy =) wakakas , espically thx to -HazE- ,
for peing me npc , burning her dens for my 1m ,
ouch =S , thx v.v.v.v much ><
n forgeting kikko teaching me bboi8 , wakakas thx ^^

issues are brought up..
now ppl tats nt close to me and start to get closer..
and close is close , i realli have to see , who are the truthful ones..
worthy to make close bonds wif them =)
on da look , wakakas , i hate dao-sters ! GND PLS !

break liao, no point crying of spilled milk..
u din treasure , tats ur prob.. and now stop making u had tat call..
tmd.. make last stand? make im the bag egg?
i wan sympathy? bullsyht..!
i dont wan sympthny but understandings..
if we cant stand each other ,
muz well end our friendship ,
i tot of what im losing , it doesnt hurt.
descison is up to u , if not.
stop those lame shyts frm u.
normal frend & full stop.

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
;let the rain fall down.. and wake my dreams.. let it wash away.. my sanity.. =)

2007-04-30T17:43:00.000-07:00

didnt blog ytd , was too tired , so i shall blog stuffs ytd this morning..=)
sincerly apperciating all those showing their care , consoling me =)
hahas , am i out of the blue , more or less , im feeling alright =)
i shall i take a small effort , say thx ! =)
thx val , harts , elaco , -LUV , jo , woosa , chris , & rest if i left out..
thx =)))))))

val ! ur awesome lars , thx for bringing tat tie-ing issue ,
seriously i realli miss that out =(
but yea's , u taught me alot of stuffs that day ,
and also nt forgeting health science ! , i shal drink many water =))
simply thx ! apperciate's =) wakak

thx jo for always being tat listening ear for our bgr problems..
u have always been that priest , wakaks , healing me & her problems..
u simply rox ! , dun maple too much =)

thx harts , for always be that girl whos always by my side..
thx for everything , espically those words , yea i needed it ;x
thx , santa will be givin u pressie ! LOLOLOLS~=)

thx elaco , for being their for ur eyecandy , wakakas =)
always the listening ear, and so u better dun feel pai sei if u take mine..
mai waste okies =)))) hope u be that cheerful elaco agains =)

** stop spouting nonsense of how we broke up , u and i noe better den anyone else..
dun cr8 stupid lies , to make u feel that u had that call.. and stop pushing the blame..
wif me ur not happy.. am i a bad guy? realli am i? **

-her blog-
**Will days get better? Yes it will.I need not think about what to say to you,what to do to please you.Funny why I can say all those sweet-nothings to others, but not you. Funny why I don't feel sad at all..**

** so why dont u said u take me as ur toy? or i juz cant learn to appericate things?
stop fking make it sound u had that call , and im the bad guy , ass!

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; dun make me hate u for life..

2007-04-29T06:15:00.000-07:00

Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will
Will I take tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Yeah And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you (there for you)
I promise

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

And I promise (and I promise)
I promise (oh I promise you)
I will be there when you call me (when you call me)
I promise (I promise)
I promise I will

it started wif promises..
ended wif 2 words of break up..

i had no idea why i had fall for you..
you simply gt me hypnotised..
and you had me at hello..
i made you to make promises..
and every of them are good intentions..
cos you had my signs of previous hard fall..
and tats y i wanted to save you be4 its too late..
we somehow gt together..
and thats where we started to drift..
i dare say u wasnt prepared..
and i dare say i was fool in jumping conclusions first..
every mistakes u made , is i feel the pain..
and i climb myself , brusied and cuts..
den i tell you.. hoping u will understand..
see how i feel and where the problem lies..
and u would change to become a better person..
i juz cant see why you take every thing i said like granted..
as if im blaming you for good..
i made it v.clear from the beginning..
i always make room for u to change..
so far.. have u cherish? and have u commit?
u made promises.. and all of them were empty promises..
if promises to are broken that easily..
why have promises in the first place..
and initiatives.. issit steping up so hard..?
issit asking hows ur day tat difficult?
or issit showing concern tat impossible..?
sometimes i feel im facing a wall..
and ur brbs? left me alone for 1hr? or even more..?
and ur replies.. lol , haha , -.- , x.x . o.O..
how to continue? i simply dont have that first piority in ur life..
i donno why you have to jump into silly conclusions..
have i mistreated you in anyway..
cant you even have faith wif me?
i gave myself & you a 2nd chance..
i make one mistake of impatient earlier..
and tats why this time i've change..
i nv brag anything abt repeating over & over again for you..
and i hide my pain behind.. giving in chances..
for u realise and change be4 i bring them up..
u said i was impaitent? lols.. this time nv..!
and the silly thought of norton antivirus 20days?
pls.. its 20 days for u to rethink & reminse..
and change to make it all up..
every swtness i have to start first..
i wonder how u can love someone..
when you do it in the heart and show nth..
i donno why u can jump to such a riduculars conclusions..
and jojo dar thing? and mistreats for you?
you nv had that little faith & trust wif me..
and you say u tired of all this? who is the one actualli tired?
and i didnt mind it if i said it a million times..
this time you are juz simply no patient..
for future vows,promises , watsoever..
think 3 billion times , for peaks sake.
and from the start.. u be wif who , stick wif who the most doesnt matter..
all i noe.. when u lost me.. i wont be the one suffering..
infact i will get the last laugh.. and u may think its stupid..
wait till when ur world crumbles down..
and you will realised , the love i gave ,
will be everything u need for.. and by that time.. regreats are useless..
fk i dont want u back =)

now all the love will be taken back, for good.
and im fking single now in aud..
thx for the painful memories all along..
and thx for ''cherishing'' , ''appreciate'' all along..
and thx for blinded sided me,
sliting my heart wif ur dagger , over & over agains..
thx for the memories.. although they were'nt so great..

meanwhile.. my love shld keep deep inside..
for the deserving girl that would hold me tight..
let time heal the wounds..

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; you aint my love afterall , i wont be there for you this time.. i promised. i wont.

2007-04-28T23:08:00.000-07:00

sometimes i realli dun understand..
why u have to do things the hard way..
i've trying so hard to make u feel rite..
giving my heart to change ur life..
why u couldnt juz be tat swt girl..
loving a person is nv hard..
unless it nv comes from the btm of ur heart..

and u said the why i have the problems bumping onto you..
and i believe i've said many times be4..
problems are how u treated me..
dont u feel the pain & lost when im facing you..?
if u were in my shoes..
have this kinda situation & words throw against u..
how would u feel..

dont u feel even u made mistakes i didnt bring it up imeediately?
dont u see i make time & space for u to realise if possible?
dont u even see i give up when im hurt , and putting the pain & past back?
dont u get touch by my words i said?
dont u feel.. anything?

im hurt! im hurt! HURT!
despite the problem.. dont u see ytd i try to talk & bring up topics though?
cant u even see im trying hard? holding on ..
and i juz dun understand why ur tempers flare easily..
and ur atitude seems so hard to change?
even the slightest error i wanna address u will spoil the mood?
imagine.. u have everything replies.. haha , lol , x.x , =/ , -.-
dont u think it juz spoils ur mood?

i've changed.. i made myself to be patient..
and think again.. 20 days trial?
do u ever think im tat kind of person ,
take a gf as trail session?
think , have i ever mistreated u in any way?
i dont even understand how u can jump into ridiculous conclusion..
wad norton anti-virus?
i cant believe after so long , u dun even see..
im nv this kinda of person..?
dont u ever have faith in me?
we patch back cos i knew i made a mistake of getting imapatient..
and those 21 days are for u to reminse and think..
even if the bad things happen ltr..
i will noe i had tried.. juz that we cant get there..

and cant u see , even when swtness begins..
its always i started it.. if i nv brought any up..
its completely empty.. dont u see the missing link?
so think again, after so long we've been thru..
have i mistreated u ? if yes..
for the pass im showering my loves..
comes to waste.

u simply juz jump into conclusion..
are u the onli one sick & tired of the problems?
and u if are y didnt u changed?
put it in the brighter side..
realise ur mistakes?
jumping conclusion kills..
if u would say u have limits..
ur a rubber band & u will have snap..
i would have snap over & over again..
into pieces..

not saying i dono how u feel..
i noe ur feeling fk up.. why are these happening to u..
cos u always think ur the victim..
ur the 1st piority if getting hurt..
u nv think out of the box..
and wads to say.. treat my words like nth has been said..
dont u think tats knife to my heart instantly?
u noe i always would give 2nd chances..
i dun understand y u have to make it sound so bad ,
like its the ending of everything..
isit so hard to give in?
change for ur the ones u love?
adapt? i din my part of patience..
and u noe i always open rooms for u to change..

if u still think ur right , and the problems lies wif me..
den im realli juz not ur mr.right.
cos i gave , i gave it all away..

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; cant i have that 1st piority & that little faith , that swtness , that love ?

....

2007-04-28T05:32:00.000-07:00

still neglecting my blog...
like everyday seems spoiled...
or may be i shld 4get abt some stuffs long ago..
this remind me of wad harts use to have in her dp..
''its pathetic to hold on something that its nv gonna happen..''

its so true.. and tats wat i always told harts..
hurt now , then hurt more ltr..
i nv expected it had became my problem too..
val reminded brought up some issues abt it also..
thx , but i shall re-consider =)
elaco reminded me up wif some stuffs too..
yea i noe wad u said was somehow true..
but u noe theres also good sides too..
well i blame myself to be born soft-hearted..=/

2 reasons why i had fall for it ,
and i shall nt tell wad isit ,
but if i could have the main one accomplished..
im contented enuff..=)
cos i have propeberly had surrendered on the 2nd one.. =/

somestuffs i realli wonder ;
1) the wrong & extra emotions tat made me got the wrong msg..
have no intentions to blame her , juz wanna her to change , y is zzz needed?
2) she gave me lol , haha , -.- , replies i cant continue
3) i din had the chance to say goodnites, and juz she went off
4) she left me waited for 45mins , cos she brb to find clothers..
5) she cames back and nv ask me anything abt my day..
6) no more swtness , i wonder about our status..

''wads wrong wif u?'' , she says.. this is how i felt =S ,fyi.
it had nth to do wif the msn i went off9 , cos i was tagging wif winter,
as i said earlier..

don't try to love a person ,
nth would happen cos everything seems like forcing,
truely loves a person,
when u noe he has everything u needed in a man.

prays for better ahead , i dun wish my days to get colder.. =s

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; sometimes i cried hard from pleading.. so sick & tired of the needless beating x.x

2007-04-25T06:22:00.000-07:00

haiis.. 1 week plus have gone & im still sick ! =(
cough & flu have weakening me down the past few days..
and 4 of my classmates started to cough..
it muz be they gt infection from me.. argh i feel so guilty =S

2day finally 1st met wif the even week teacher..
he's dam strict.. dun even let us reply our sms !
but he actualli made us concentrated effectively..
and i completely understand the whole lesson XD
5hrs of pratical after break till 12..
and i realli dun like praticals..
cos they are oppunities to ruin my beautiful hand =x
seriously , MANY MANY ppl said i have girls alike hand..
im proud of it =x seriously =x
i was defiant @ the teacher.. cos he pull my wire our of my sockings..
defiant the joking way la.. nv realli meant it..
cos he was standing beside me.. he raise his hand and pat my back..
and i feel his palm.. started to rub against my back.. slowly in circles..
and i lifted my eyebrown @ him.. he gave me tat horny face...
and those pair of ''electrifying'' eyes.. YUCKS!
i feel so digusted after that.. SO TICOOOO x.x
finished the work given early and we went off by 4+..
reach home @ 5.. it was pouring heavely..
drench when i gt home =x AHCOOOOOOOOOOOOO~

the little things i requested from u..
are the little things that will take me there..
yea if they werent present.. i will feel lost..
cos tat is the one particular key..
right now.. one of them has seemly gone..
due to the situation u had.. and yea..
the onli time we had.. cherish it..
or we could be drift away..

juz so you noe ,
ur the everything that i cared for..
the slightest thing u do ,
may trigger my heart..
u dun wan to lose that privilage =)

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; if onli two were to give in completely.. sparks will occur..

2007-04-22T07:56:00.000-07:00

neglected my blog this few days..
many things happen.. i fall sick.. big time..
fever , flu , cough , sorethroat.. kills me =((
tiring poly days.. every day i took bus home..
tat 30mins + time.. i reminised everything we had from the beginning..
i den realise.. yea i made mistakes.. i was too impatient..

these few days in sch was sucky.. but i have made new frends..
awesome-ness.. more close bonds..
but w/o the laptop programs.. i wasnt able to learn in some lessons..
sarks.. i felt i have fall behind alot.. and i seriously need to work hard..
i wan my future to be bright! i have to word hard.. keep in mind *

thx arvin , i gt prisonbreak season 2 full episodes .. yay-ness..
finally summited my NS deferment.. & finally completelmy project..
wastewater treatment plant.. LOLOLS~
i feel bad to mafan brook late night.. i was surprised i din have pp on my lappy..
how sucky is tat.. sry brooks to mafan u =)

a fresh start , make this right ..
throughout this long journey..
shower me all ur loves..
give me all that pride..
i will hold u tight..
to make u feel right..
keep promises..
for the love's one..
we will get there..
this i swear..

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; take your darkness night and make it bright for you.. =)

~_~

2007-04-17T06:39:00.000-07:00

ok , i solved the mystery of my flip flop problems..
cos the campus is either incline or decline..
this makes angle of elvation & depression to be differnt..
hahas and tats y =) i hope val havanians do fit my feet =)

sch was sucky 2day.. made more frends.. yea hope close bonds =)
2day teacher all so strict de.. tmd.. went to canteen 2 2day..
food sarks =S pasta like sai ~_~ ok den went to past my giro form =x
hoho.. i was abit pissed at last lesson.. he go thru 5 questions.. a class of 40..
took 1 hr.. waste of time lor.. kns sia.. -.-
cca cca cca, bbal bbal bbal.. =S
dono where to sign up , kns kns kns .. LOLS ;x

im hope ur more clear wif things now..
and i hope my words made impact in ur life..
stay positive.

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; love to lost , the day i let you goo..

broke up

2007-04-16T06:34:00.000-07:00

sch sux , i realli think im a blur sotong..
ytd cannot login to npal.. go sch wif no idea where my class room would be..
was late .. went to block 50 , looking for familiar faces..
say my yr 2 frend.. he directed me to atrium.. i called my frend , same course as me..
he refused to pick my fone.. 4 times straight.. den nvm ..
reach atrium.. the counter lady ask me go block 37 floor 6..
ok walk all the way up agins.. she ask for my student id , & moments ltr..
she gave me my time table.. great.. den finally walk to blk 50..
my class.. be4 i reach.. he sms.. i in class liao.. wtf sia.. dam tu lan..
pick fone will die ah.. den nvm.. reach my class.. feeling pai sei , irratated.. sweat like fark ~_~
the new adidas flip flop was venting its anger on my feet.. the rubber area..
keep rubbing onto my skin.. causing pain , 1st layer of skin came off.. painfullness..
used up 1 box of handplast.. they were nv handy ~_~ went home wif gay looking feet =S

its a long journey , ever since we knew each other..
when we realli hit it off staring to noe more bout each other..
i found ur the exact person tat was showing signs of falling into my shoe..
an unseemly emotion let my heart out to step into ur life ,
a mission to save u before you could have fallen..
i took the iniciative to guide you , show you , tell you , step up ,
point to you , be there for you , i even loved u from the beginning..
and all this times.. i truely believed , i gave in what i got..
devoted my precious time.. , endure wad attiude u gave me..
i did my part , as wadever status i am to u in ur heart..
sad to said.. tats wad i can give.. i tried my best.. sorry..

these times.. i juz dun seem to get.. why cant u learn to adapt to my solutions?
time after time.. i've guide u all along.. even time theres a mistake..
i point.. show u the way.. even make obviously hints wad u shld do..
u asked y i have to change u when im what of who i am? i told u..
cos ur something special.. tat i see a sign of failure.. where me as a frend..
could step up and save you.. , u shocked me more.. u gt ask me to change other
things meh? after i did so much stuffs.. u din feel anything ? u dun feel i changing u?
concerned u so much? guide u ? show u? im truely disappointed..
u say ur nt bright.. and i told u no1 is borned perfect.. u can learn rite..
from expierences.. no 1 is broned dumb & 4ever dumb..

another thing i juz couldnt understand.. why u cant juz think abt me in the first place..
why has it to be u to think about urself saying that im actualli suffering the most?
pls.. u dun even see that those problems hit me first.. i fall ALONE..
stood up ALONE , wif bruised & cuts.. and den i tell u abt the problems..
and i told u.. im here for u .. despite the brusied & cuts.. and u had to brag abt it..
ur suffering the most.. can u see..? if u didnt make those mistakes unknowly..
problems would have nv hit me..

den when i tell u about the problems.. u always feel so relunctant..
u juz say.. orh .. orh.. orh.. , saying for hrs.. and i tot u have gotten it..
and the nxt day.. everything falls back in place.. nth have changed..!
i wonder ur orh's are juz to satisfied me? each time situations like this..
i spend time.. repeating over & over again.. time after time..
i nv mention a word abt it.. u nv took my words seriously..
tats all i can say..

ytd u nugde me.. and u said u were sorry.. and i told u..
sorry is nth when u proof ur realli sorry.. though u said makes me feel happy..
but moments ltr.. problems start hitting again..
like every time i say.. u nv take the initiative to make the first step..
at all.. no add ons.. no swt talkings.. no step ups.. no nth..
if i dun care abt u.. i wun have waited ur 5-10mins of each reply..
tat drag for 4hrs till midnight.. i was holding on my fever to hear u talk..
wad shyt.. have u even thought abt it? guess u wouldnt had..

and promise u go sch 2day.. i hinted u ytd i have hp..
and no sms.. ok.. so when i gt home.. i saw ur psn msg..
'' suan le ''? pissed.. after doing so much u juz suan ler?
i wanted to nudge u and ask.. u psn msg suan ler..
nvm.. den u psn msg.. '' its over ''? i nudge u and say..
if u thinks its over.. it will be.. den u reply me wif ap..
'' nv talk , end liao ma.. '' wtf sia.. after doing so much for u..
u think juz buy sorry baby.. and tats gonna erase all my pain 1 night?
have u heard of bu chang? slowly get me back?
the simplest thing u also dun get it.. i explained once all over again..
u see so relunctant and wans to get straight.. ask me so this time no chance?
are u tat forward looking to see wads the ending?
i gave u chances all along.. many many.. expecting u to change..
tell me , do u deserve a 2nd chance..? u quickly came to
conclusion , no chance? ok nvm. wtf la?
many times.. i held myself back.. ok 1 more chance.. 1 more..
and another 1 more.. and this time u went even fiercer den me..
i explained.. why and etc.. i even blinded myself..
force myself.. hint u once last chance.. proof me tat ur serious..
this time.. but wad u gave? i rather dun wait it.. end it..

my heart shattered.. after doing so much for u.. u felt nth..
and u juz gonna take back everything and end it?
u nv once treasured me.. and i felt what a fool am i to let u
deserve my love.. im so ruined..=S ,#@$%^&* =SS

tell you i loved you , but when u call I NEVER GET BACK.

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; i wanted these words to make things rite , but its the wrong things that make this words come to life.. so isit pain that makes you real?

shoppin

2007-04-15T08:29:00.000-07:00

my heart turn cold on 15/4/07.

met up wif yoyo 2day.. went queensway first..
brought my psp to keep both of us entertained on the bus..
LOLS! nba 2007 is fun.. had mac , when im sick .. yoyo idea..
as promised , lunch was on me .. $12 ! lols~
we joke abt stuff in aud.. espically crappyzap.. =/
its juz so funny =)) hohoho~ ok got myself 3 fresh tees..
cost me $ 47.. but it became $62.50.. hoho , cos i suprised yoyo..
he liked a tee me.. so i surprised him and got tat tee for him FOC ,
as bdae pressie.. YOYO! happy b'dae in advance.. =)
ok den went to billabong shop , gt myself 2 pants..
gosh , $160 ~_~ , omg i juz love this kinda pants ~_~
went JP after that.. gt another 3 tops from 77th street..
and sign up for membership which cost me bout $100..
din get my levis jeans.. $139.. too ex le ba.. i wait to slim down..
wear my 2 older levis jeans .. prays god * slim down , FAST! =S
dinner @ kopitiam.. bought deathnote book 13 , argh $7 ,
but its thicker.. lols~ went down to wallet shop earlier..
decided to buy stranger wallent.. but den .. after dinner .. go down ..
they close liao ~_~ , so i have to wait.. ~_~
i shld go and get it , nxt few days.. ur wanted by me =)
short summary.. i need to kick the habit spending money like water..
spent like $350 2day .. =S , cant wait for new wallet.. =)
i cannot login to my np student webby.. i dono my time table..
i dono where my class will be.. omg im freaking out =S

saying sry means nth when u proof it ur realli sorry..
proof it to me.. =) tats the onli way my heart will come back to life..
i believe i told u many times where de problems lies..
so its all onto you.. if u can changed.. or not..
well i dono.. but for time being.. im still here..
its how you hold me.. determines wad will happen nxt..
you noe i tried =) , nows urs..

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; im yours truely , if u can hold me. baby.

2007-04-14T06:52:00.000-07:00

fever still , abit of flu..
woke up & aud.. nth much ba..
sick so push the town trip to 2ml..

its always a few lines and nth more..
how are u gonna lemme live wif this..
sometimes i realli dono how i stand in ur heart..
cos i realli dono where i actualli stand..
i realli dono how to treat u the right way..
despite our status now.. its like we wont even there..
ask urself.. have u asked me abt my rl stuff..
or in ways show care & concern to me..
i dun even get them..
sometimes ur replies are juz like..
''lol , -.- , haha '' they dun even have add on's..
this makes feel left wondering , speechless. dono wad to say..
it makes me feel u dont even bother , care , liddat..
i trying hard to get u talk more , hope u can have add on..
shoot each other back wif stuffs.. where talks could be..
more fun , intresting , & everlastin..
but none had happen.. did u ever feel im apporaching, steping up?
im 2 sided now.. caring u in both ways..
put it in simpler words.. in our current status & rl..
i have non now, and it makes me so insecured.

to the person i quarrel wif u earlier
some times i cannot take ur ap.. its like i giving in like almost all the time..
if u dono how to cherish a frend like me.. im fine wif it..
u juz have to take my word for it.

giving in has it's limits..

* i hate naive ppl who goes like , my fault la , everything my fault when they are actualli at fault.. they stick hard wif what they think they are right.. these ppl will nv learn.. ppl like this shld fall hard , den u will taste realli satisfaction of pain * AMEN , fall hard ppl! *

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; im a sensitive , yet serious person . feeling lost & insecured *

2007-04-13T09:28:00.000-07:00

1st day of orientation , sarks..
went wif fever & flu.. how sarks it is..
funny thing occured after registration..
they brought me to the wrong course class..
i sat wif AT ppl fir 3 hrs in LT-45..
how comedy! ltr we were brought by the student ldr..
to a room where a lecture gives speech..
he starting showing us a aerospace tutriol vid..
i went like.. '' omg , sth is so wrong =S ''
i quickly nugde one of the student leaders..
and said '' erm im ME de nt AT ''
he raise his eyebrown , and then escorted me to LT-45..
den guess wad.. he directed me to a seat.. which is ME ,
but wrong class! At first i was delighted.. yay my class gt
3 girls.. hey dun get the wrong idea.. i made a bet wif my bbal frend..
he said.. if ur class gt more den 2 girls.. i blang-ja u one meal..
feeling delighted* , student leader say .. erm u 05 de?..
i went no.. he say erm u sitting in 05 le..
i look at the paper paste on the floor *
'' wth..! wrong class once again! ''
i quickly turn behind.. see my actualli class..
omg.. all boys.. disappointed x.x
den nvm.. lunch i gt lost again.. cos i din get clear view of the students in my class..
i followed into JDI course ppl.. omg so pai sei , once again..
and i needed another student leader to escort me.. once again..
den finally meet up wif the bois. all so not in socialising mode..
how sad is that.. we nv talk , communicate..
the games.. we were nt sporty.. we were name as the cool team..
tats wad our student ldr said.. lols~
games were mostly boring.. and it was raining..
worsen my sickness x.x
in the end.. yea.. onli interacted abit..
finally we were dismissd..
went home feeling giddy & moody x.x

woke up 2day.. feeling sick..
deicded nt to go to oreintaion.. have the idea it would be bored..
im sterotype this time =S slept again & woke up in 11am..
realised mommy din go for work.. she was sick too..
the whole family is down.. daddy bad cough.. mommy headache..
me fever & flu.. , and im having cold war wif my dad..
heck u.. im nt gonna pity u anymore..
play aud.. like finally.. one day nv play =S
check up wif maple.. wah left 12 ppl in guild..
sad.. new maps.. ooo .. likes yeti pet * cute..
since she had to brb.. i took the oppt. to tidy my room..
alot of dust.. ahh.. 2 hrs of tidy.. still nt enuff..
i was feeling annoy by my itchy skin.. argh..
decided to stop.. and go for bathe & dinner*
feeling satisfied still.. i din noe i clean tat well.. im so BHB =P

im lost in you.. i need to noe how u feel..
and that will tell me wad i can do..
to make u feel alrught..
sometimes i feel ur uncertaincy..
or may relunctancy.. may'b ur paisei.. =o
or im expecting too much..
but yea still.. i noe u can be lil'bit of sweetness..
if you feel rite.. i hope u step up more..
you noe i love it when u step up.. x)
baby , onli you can show me the way..

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; if i have to say everything out.. what happens nxt will be all meaningless..

2007-04-11T08:01:00.000-07:00

fallen sick , argh..
aud mantainace , argh..
hair trim , awesome la , love it..
tidy my room abit.. much more to go..
im still sick.. 2ml oriention.. =(
hope it does't get worse..
im getting bleach 2ml =S
for her , lols stupid sia my idea..
but anw , its nice still , so nvm ..

rmb wad u said ah.. '' slowly ''
hehes x)

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; hold tight. cos im abt to take u for a spin.

2007-04-10T08:12:00.000-07:00

happy day :3
v.dramatic 2day..
if ur reading this im sure u feel the same =)
and i v.sure u feel happy 2day too =)
its good u've understand my side of story now,
i noe its tough for u to say those things
the words u said ok , mean it ah :3
& appreciate me ! =) i do de same too =))
provided u dun call me baka =))
wif , loves *

went raffles wif weehong , yoyo .
needed to go penisular plaza..
den got out of raffles , but the plaza is located @ city hall..
how comedy , travel again =)
went funan gt my nba 2007 amd =)
i gt another top & billabong btm there..
dam nice =)
had chicken cutlet for lunch , fattening food =S
went down to queensway , gt plently of stuff =o
addidas bag , waterbottle , another 3 tops ,
another btm , shoebag..
i spent alot 2day, my legs are so tiring ,
i gt this gift bag from billabong shop *
dam nice , awesome-ness
due to walking onto to lemon-made floor* =P
i spend like near $400 2day =S
still nt satisfied.. need more shopping ,
hair trim 2ml , orientation nxt day , ahhh =S
tired liao , ending here..
TATAS X)

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; 10.o4.07 , days will get better from 2day =)

2007-04-09T08:07:00.000-07:00

tat thing u did 2day hit me dumbfounded...
its was nv part of my expectation..
i diverted most of my attention to you..
but dont u feel anything all this while..?
effort? sincerity? care? concern? etc?
or issit i didnt give u enuff credit..
u know after all we've been through..
i cant believe this is how u wanna leave things behind..
have a good time den..

complete disappointment.
this is personal.. i dun anybody ask me about this..

juz may'b somebody.. i would be good enuff for you..
; all this while i was waiting.. and now the waiting comes to an end.

kp

2007-04-08T09:05:00.001-07:00

dad coming back from msia..
he was suppose to be home by 9am.. but till 12pm..
he still wasnt home.. my mom & i were worried for him..
calling his hp serveral time.. finally he came home..
i gave him a warm welcome.. he didnt reacted.. he ask be to carry 2 bags in..
i carried.. i put @ the usual places.. he always left his things.. after he bought..
den he walks in.. den starting ganing me alreadi..
why u have to put here.. who call u to put here..
'' hello? i help u carry alreadi.. u didnt even tell me where to put.. and liddat u juz gan me..? ''
nvm i let it go.. put the 2 bags where he wanted.. den moments ltr..
he gan me again.. plastic bag on the kitchen table dono how to keep ah...
'' argh.. k fine i keep .. '' den 3pm.. he gan again..
so now u dun wan to eat ur lunch rite.. wait till u gastric old liao den u noe..
i was like.. '' hey i had my breakfast late..'' den he kp further..
so ltr u eat alreadi dun need dinner liao la.. '' of cos i need la.. ''
ok den nvm.. i ate my lunch , forcefully..
den after i ate i ask him do u need to get any food? since mom is coming home @ 4pm..
he replied lazily..he went to him room.. i felt my lips were oily..
so i head to store room to get tissue paper.. i rmb he told me..
when u see no tissue on the table.. replenish them..
ok den i wait to the kitchen table wif a new box of tissue paper..
den he talk loudly.. alreadi gt tissue paper why u need to take again..
i was like where?.. he shouted again.. there..! i say where..
no tissue on the table.. he shouted there!!!
pointing to the edge of the kitchen where we charge our hp..
''u put it there how am i suppose to see? ''
he immediately scould.. ur no eyes ah.. eyes dead ah.. cannot see ah..
'' hello? u put it there .. its not on the kitchen table.. ''
he kp more.. use ur eyes la.. gt eyes to play com.. cannot see ah..
''come on lor.. onli tissue paper u wan scould me like i break the law..''
den he say .. i say onli hor.. not scoulding.. fk u la..
if ppl hear the loudness u say nt scoulding.. i tok my head for u kick soccer..
he kp for another few minutes.. i imeediately went to bathe..
i threw punches @ the wall.. knuckles went red..
i hate my dad ap.. seriously hate it.. if i have the $..
i swear to god i sure leave home..

thank you , you noe who.. being there for me 2day.. =)
this feeling is like no other =))

to the rest , thx for concern =) <33 load ="">

shopping 2ml , queensway =) dun let this spoil my mood tml =)
tatas x)

juz may'b someday i would be good enuff for you..
; if u asked.. i will say yes.. =)

2007-04-05T10:40:00.000-07:00

yay! finally went town , like finally.
took the initiative to call up yoyo , kenneth , weehong..
went JE first & den went town..
finally gt my zinc crown bag =) $35 , v.cheap =o
crumpler bag dun have the colour i want..
the girl told me crumpler nt famous le =o
gt another new one $ 179 den =o
lols i saw her make up =o thick =x LOLS..
yea i found easy communicating wif the sales girl.. i wonder y..
den i told her.. hmm i go think abt it.. den went out..
nv came back =x but hey thx for making the effort advertising =)
saw that addidas bag $65 =S , rather go queensway onli $45
ask wad weehong said.. since i need to go town again , queensway also =)
hahas.. onli gt 1 stuff , sad la =S many more on my list.

well went to cafe cartel for dinner , which is my lunch =)
the food looks awesome , but serious.. nt that nice..
i hate carrots , cucumber sux , <3 french fries , so so wif the steak *
i had a bad order =S.. dillon came & join us.. den we went cathey..
wanted to watch no.23 but.. 1.30am time slot.. wth~
in the end watch sunshine.. v.nice show.. but abit messy =S
still thumbs up =) den went to pc bunk..
i saw raveaddict * <- kid
saw kurofied * , saw xtouran , but girl using ,
saw melting * , saw xpurified * i dun think i recalled any others..
LOLS~ but yea.. some bunk ppl look * UNEXPECTED *
LOLS X) im nt handsome so i cannot laugh =)
i bet my frends do * LOLS =x

went arcade * since they say early , watch they play =S..
i nv play aracde like centurys =S hate it . childish *
den went to JE.. den jurongville sch opp. food court..
supper! i was hungry.. prata! BLOATED =S
head home @ midnight * boughted 5 ppc =S
it addicted , cant stop =S

grats pan for reaching amatuer =) HOHO
didnt see elaco in bunk * sad LOLS~
missed number23 movie..
didnt get my crumpler bag..
didnt get my addias bag..

need to go down queesway & town for shopping * once again..
i wan spent my $$!
tired le , tatas x)

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; step up more & i'll promise you more x)

cos u noe

2007-04-03T07:24:00.000-07:00

woke up feeling fk up..
aud patch.. kns..
raining.. cannot go play bbal..
watch nba LA vs SUS.. nice game..

aud was up @ 12+..
decided to watch finised den aud..
thx elaco for pming.. thx for consoling , like finally some nudge..
the chris , j-hanx for consoling too..
the rest still zz.. fine 4get it..
u dun treasure me ur lost.. one day u sure find my name disapper from ur bl..

sorted some things out 2day..
like i put in my psn msg earlier..
im gonna say it all be4 i go.. juz so you noe..

from the day i met you..
i know u dun come from any ordinary family..
didnt have any other ordiary childhood memories..
i knew that ur one special person..
perhaps im juz understand u too well..
sometimes i can figure wads in ur mind..
no 1 is meant to be perfect.. im met ur flaws..
i did my part to correct u.. for the better..
but sure u will met mine someday..
or may be it has alreadi happen.. idk..
a emo-person i see.. same as me..
i knew this person needed help & attention..
when ever i sees sth wrong..
i wouldnt hesitate to step up and say..
''hey u dun seem ok , wads wrong? =S ''
yea i believe i did my part..
reaching out for u.. promises were made..
ensuring u wun do sth foolish enuff to harm urself..
thx for everything u did for me.. song & skins..
realli appreciated * well this is juz onesided help i've gotten..
one other side.. is when i nt ok.. i nv recalled u ever step up to me..
i think its pretty obvious.. many times i tried to hint you..
but yea.. 2 days.. no reaction.. nt saying u dun care..
im juz SOOO not the type of person..
that im gonna tell u im nt fine.. den u will come..
totally not.. another thing was throwing thamtrum..
no 1 blames u for anything.. every person makes mistakes..
every single thing that happens.. are actualli experience to u..
i hate it when u go like.. w/e la , everything also my fault..
i the bad guy la.. happy now?
put that words in my shoe.. and if u were hearing it..
how would u feel.. i hope ur reading this..
cos everything i said comes from btm of my heart..
i feel i shld juz step up once again.. let u noe wads all abt..
im nt perfect.. so if u have things u wanna tell me abt..
juz tell me.. i would be happy to know my flaws..
but if u think all my talkings are trash , aint real..
i cant save u.. but one thing *
im still gonna be everything u need in anyway..
unless u dun need it anymore..
just have to say it all ,
before i go ,
just so u noe..

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; eevrything is so clear now.. i will be ok by 2ml =)

BTH

2007-04-02T08:17:00.000-07:00

woke up late 2day.. 10am..
went for appt. @ 12pm..hot weather.. sweats =/
last appt.. yea kinda happy =/ sad though =/ up & down *
i was playing wif my music player on de bus.. gosh loud..
cos of de bus engine noise was loud.. i den on de.. din bring earpiece..
den when it comes to a stop.. the engine makes a stop.. v.soft sound..
and thats when my hp plays the chorus of the song..
loud enuff where everyone turn back and look @ me.. dam ps =/

when home rest.. din sleep well..
den went aud.. im dam pissed what happen in aud..
win & lose nvm.. but i talk in a room..
gt 5 ppl le.. 10 eyes.. and when i talk i dun get replys..
wtf man.. dun tell me u cant see.. but 5 other ppl in de room lor..
tmd.. these happen many times alreadi.. i si bei du lan..
i leave the room after that game.. hop to other rooms..
and no 1 asked me y i liddat? eh tmd.. wad are frends for..
i treat u like my closest.. and im making a huge move leaving the room liddat..
i noe mayb u think i dc.. but pls le.. after at least 3 games.. i dun get a single pm..
fk off man.. den finally 1 pm game.. and it wasnt abt me?!
u can imagine how @#$%^&* am i.. when im alreadi @#$%^&* ..
u tell me abt ur problems.. its nt sth pleasent to mention but im realli cannot take it..
i can be by urside anytime u want me..
wont u guys be by my side when i need u?
wad are u guys thinking?! im juz a hear-out for u guys? gimme a break !
if u guys treat me like shyt again.. fk man i wont give a dam abt ur prob..

pissed wif aud.. cases like these keep happening..
i will quit..

simple questions to noe my day..
they were nv heard..
simple words to show ur care..
they were nv there..
simple person that shield ur storms..
they were meant to keep u save..
simple lines that wont let me fall..
they were all gone..

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
;slice of heaven , you.

2007-04-01T08:41:00.000-07:00

happy april fool every 1 =)
no time to blog these few days.. slping late these few days =S
woke up early 9am * the lift construction woke me up..
tmd ! i slept @ 2am ytd.. wake up @ 9am.. kns kns..
normally i would have woke up in de afternoon.. =S

ok sms to 3 of my frends.. i wanted to go town v.long ago lor..
den until 1 pm den i recived back sms.. kns somemore onli 1 replied..
where are de rest?! zz
in the end still cannot contact wif de other 2 ppl..
den nv go..

went down play bball.. im feeling i becoming stronger liao..
stronger then yesterday..
nothing nothing gonna be in my way..
lols~ still need to improve shooting *
leg almost cramp..
den chit chatted wif the guys down there..
omg they talked abt dirty topics luh..
i was sitting @ the end hearing -.-
i bet my frend also feel zz , i guess..
but they realli make us laugh..
enlighten the atmosphere..
but yea.. inapporiate..

to ELACO quiz :

These are the rules: Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!

1.show care & concern to ppl when they are down , but they dun show back..
2.mood swings anytime XD , do silly things XD
3.wears differnt type of mask when facing differnt type of ppl..
4.always hoping ppl to there for me, concern me when im down
5.always think out of the picture , dreams *
6.can stone for minutes just to figure out what to do next..

The 6 ppl i wanna choose..
1.mei ling
2.shu hui
3.harts
4.darren
5.belin
6.-NO ONE-

there for you , whenever ur down..
wasnt there for me , whenever im down..
things i said , were truth..
words i hear , mayb not..
appreciated?
unappreciated!
'say it & mean it , dun say it cos you can..

i wan go town!!!
major shopping =))
tatas~

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; how close is close..?

4321

2007-03-28T08:09:00.000-07:00

finally.. i've sorted things out =) more or less yea..
its nt pleasent but i have to accept the fact..
friend better den foe isnt it? =)
its the best route i can find..
and im taking it.. yet nt losing it =)

though i can't be wif you tonight..
you know my heart will be by ur side.. =)

so yea now..everything is so clear..

ok overslept 2day.. late for bbal training x.x
went aud ltr..mom fallen sick..
get well soon..
yay finally get my new hp.. & im loving it =)
like i wanted a slide fone so long..
mp3 also.. and this fone has it all!
i upgraded it into a 1gb memo..
$207 gone x.x.. but its worth it
there are still more things to get on my list..=/
im left wif like 500 sgd.. oh gosh oh gosh..
but im getting 500 sgd from mommy soon <- clothers *
but still.. muz spend my money carefully.. x.x

2 weeks to orientation.. nt looking 4ward ;x
hopefully finding someday soon go town..
i wan that zinc bag wif crown *
and one sling bag , mayb the crumpler de.. HOHO
poly clothers be4 oriention , final appt 2ml .
omg i gonna pok soon..

to pan ; juz when u think the world is coming to an end.. theres always me =)

so u beter dun lemme see negative stuffs on ur personal msg hor! BAKA! =))

nth more to add on ~
tatas x)

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; everything is so clear now.. =)

cos i love you so.. the day i let u go..

2007-03-24T07:06:00.000-07:00

many things happened.. im juz not OK =/
i decided to change nt becuz of wads happening ard me..
there may be another reason.. i dont know..

sleepless nights.. though i have sort out stuffs.. they are all negative..
and those noe abt wads going on shldnt be happy abt it.. im alreadi tired of it..!
fk man.. went out wif frends on 16th to JE / BUGIS / POOL / PLAZA SING
went to bugis street find bag.. 1 bag in mind alreadi..
went for pizza ltr.. hawaii & bbq chicken *
watch horror movie.. suggested * mainly try to draw my attention away..
the feeling sux lar.. im de type who realli dun like horror had to watch it.. kns..
cos i dun have other stuff that can draw my attention away i guess..

lost touch.. vented my anger on bball.. ok man of de match tat day.. i touch de temple ring..
unseemly strength.. even so.. im nt happy.. nt happy!
reach lvl 21 ametuer few days back.. thx shi hui =)
but still nt happy.. =/

ytd paid wrong sch fees.. had to went down to NP..
mommy followed so to clear GIRO..
and she surprised me to get a lappy for me..
ok went down there.. GIRO need signature..
my mom 4get her signature on her bank book.. so comedy..
bought LENOVA T60 =O
was thinking shld i go camp..
argh i 4get to register for jap class.. tmd.. reg date close..kns kns kns..
even gt de lappy i have been crazy for.. still nt happy..

i wonder.. wads up wif all de avoiding? or may be im juz thinking too much agains..
i dono..

cos you were the closest to me than heaven can be..
and now ur gone.. who can i lean on..?

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; overdosed. x.x

CHANGED=)

2007-03-18T08:55:00.000-07:00

im gonna changed.

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for u you..
; im dead.. emotionally..

2007-03-13T06:21:00.000-07:00

i had a terribly night sleeping last night..
seriously terrible.. my eyes juz wont shut..!
my brain juz can't stop thinking..!
no mood for everything 2day..
push my doc appt..
no joggin due to rain..
rot wif my thoughts..
so let my thoughts do the talking 2day..

ever since i drop from express to na in sec1..
i've always see the gap between me & my fellow classmates..
im juz guessing juz becuz i've drop to NA.. it doesnt mean im a bad guy?
and i dun see de reason i shld been avoided by u guys..
i drop to de worst NA class..sec2..
it wasnt fun.. i tried to mixed back wif my sec1 ppl..
everytime i see on their faces.. one word.. '' reluctant ''
it let me no other chioces but to hang wif my sec2 NA ppl..
u think its fun?.. hell no..
i had ppl jio-ing me to join gang.. all those..
its sth nt pleasent & irratating..
lucky becuz nt every 1 in my class are bengs & lians..
i managed to hang out wif a small group of ppl..and eventualli made it to sec3 best NA clases..
the 1st 6mths are awesome.. used to hang out wif a group of guys..
but ltr becuz of im sensitively to things ard me..
i was ltr being hated for being sensitive to jokes.. calling father mother names..
u may think its fun on silly.. but the one being pick on doesnt feels the same..
and after since.. i nv hang out wif them.
i tired to go back to my sec3 express friends.. they were so far away from me..
i juz couldnt catch up wif them.. or shld i say.. they nv made room for me..
so for tat past 2yrs.. i had to spend every painful recess more or less alone..
v.seldom i have friends siting by.. i used to have pri sch good frends..
who were also the same sch as me.. part of the group hated me cos of my sensitivity..
and every time when i walked him.. the normal route i walk home will cross a bbal court..
and every time when i see the group of my pri sch frends playing there..nt telling me..
i feel so hurt.. like no 1 bother to call.. or even they called me..
i would have to talk trash talking from them.. ''wah sian.. he come i dun come..''
i nv felt so left out for de past 2 yrs..
juz think for 2yrs.. every day is like that.. i nv realli went out wif frends..
my handphone is like no handphone.. my msn list so many ppl like no msn..
u noe that kinda of feeling.. hatred ard u.. lonelyness ard u.. is so incredible..
worst..im the onli child..
i have thoughts of commit sucide.. many times.. it led me crying in my bed..

and 2day im gonna let it all out.. and u sure wanna noe y i din commit sucide..
cos im have been expectating the day every since sec 2..
i have been expecting a turn or sth to happen that would change my life..
where every 1 could still accept me as a frend again..
i had once again encourage myself over & over again after every fall..
cos thats all i've got where no 1 other then my parents concerned me..
i had to be de onli one shivers in storms.. hoping someone to hold an umbrella for me..
i had to hide my ''xin shi'' inside me that let bleeding wounds..
cos there wasnt realli ppl would will listen and help..
i had to fight problems even when im injured..
cos there wasnt no 1 shielding for me..
when i fell sick.. no 1 in sch keeps notes or tells me what work is given in sch..
at tat point i alreadi come to a conclusion to give up hope in my life..
simply by joining gang..

but i rejected gang offers over & over again cos im
so looking forward.. expecting one day someone will understand me..
hoping one of u will noe y am i juz the way i am..
im sensitive to things ard me cos u guy's actions started in sec 2 made me became what i am..
its not sounding im standing still waiting ppl to take action..

during the yrs i tired approaching ppl..showing care & concern..
i wanted to foster a better relationship wif ppl where by..
hoping that u would do the same..care abt me..
but nv..! and i found out i have been seemly to be every 1 problem solver..
when ever u have a problem u juz come up to me.. and when i helped u solved it..
it goes like thank you SO much.. bye bye..
yes i would love to help u.. but couldnt u be a little.. u noe?
does it hurt to spend juz a few moments to show ur concerns..
words like.. '' so hows life '', '' hows things happening lately ''
u guys simply fk up wif my past 4yrs..

becuz of all these incidents.. from the cheerful boy yrs ago have changed into a EMO boy..
im so nt the type of telling.. hey im having a problem.. like this..
i would keep it to myself.. hoping ppl to come concern..
if not..my mood & the way i speak will show..
im nt the guy will react to things normall..
in every situation.. i have to put on mask..
to juz fit ard wif them..
cos its jus so not me..
so i gonna say..NO1 .. ABOSOLUTELY NO1..
understands me.. those who thinks they are closed..
so far yet so near..

it has reach my limits 2day.. every part in me has showing signs for me to retaliate..
im gonna say all loud so u guys can hear..
and for those guys who are reading this..
look into ur life..look into ur frends.. look into ur family..
juz take a back step seeing this..
cos if u dun wan the same shyt life as i have..
i hope if ur having any hatred.. ask u self y..be4 its too late..
i hope no1 falls into my shoes..

i always wished for those close frends where can hang out..
chat and discuss problems.. so care & concern to everyone..
helps to shield each other when theres a problem going on..
i wanted close frends but they are so hard to find..
either they alreadi have.. or they dont feel the same as i am..
i wished for more concerns..more attentions..
& i wished tatsomespecial could appear to save me..
but i guess i wont be expecting much any more..
im so tiring on steppin up again..
showing once agains my care & concerns..
im juz gonna say it all..
juz so u noe..

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; teddies bears dont hug back.. but sometimes they are juz all u've got.. =//

...

2007-03-12T07:48:00.000-07:00

woke up late.. v.tired la.. leg still hurts..
i feel like im wasting my days everyday..
yea everyday lor.. GAMES? SLACKING?
haiis.. im so fan wif my thing ard..
seriously.. dead beat..

i figure that things ard me juz wont work out..
all are so negative la..

sometimes i realli wished things would work out..

had my hair cut in de afternoon..
went out to bbal ltr.. my leg hurts..
saw de usual ppl.. that they seems to have 4gotten me..
haiis.. and worst still tat ass daniel.. still see me buai song..
in de whole game.. he purposely dun pass ball to me..
fine lor.. who wan ur dirty ball.. =))

well val nudge me up earlier..
sry i was late..
she shared wif me her dirty little secret..
and im so glad i helped her fixed it all up..
way to go NERD.. hope ur win-win plan works.. =)

actualli i was thinking sth all along..
sth tat has bothered me for yrs..
im like everytime the one who makes de effort..
show the ppl ard me care & concern..
but y nv one of them ever concerned me?
no ppl asked or like cared..
seriously its like all abt them and nth abt me..
confrences are like all abt u.. im juz each & every 1 problem solver..
after tat i hope the person would go like..so hows ur things going..like nv!
sometimes it hurts.. this feeling is like no other..
of cos im happy to help u.. but is that the onli stuff u can see?
isit so hard to find true frends..? or am i juz expecting too much..?
when will better days come? cos i dun think i can hold much more..=//

well mayb i shld stop bloggin..like no 1 reads..
EMO
tatas..

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; its not i want to bring it up again..cos it has hit a point where everything in me wants to retaliate..

woot

2007-03-11T08:09:00.000-07:00

was completely exhasted ytd from my 2.4km run.. so din blog ytd..
i dun kinda rmb it though =// me v.stm =D
but 1 thing i rmb.. tat my legs hurt dam bad ytd.. macham like going to break..
i had to sit on the stairs to regain my composure >_<
my jelly legs took me 1hr ltr to bath -.-
lucky my mom had this counterpian relief cream.. it works ! dam awesome!
feeling so much better 2day =))

2day woke up late.. due to ytd GUESS show.. it was rainie last appearance..
so sad =// looking @ her past achievements during the 4yrs in GUESS..
gotta agree guess changed her alot.. rainie good luck in ur endeavours =))

caught up val on msn in de early afternoon.. =))
hey thx for the info on the notebooks in suntec convention..
they realli come in handy.. but sadly parents still disapprove =//
as promised.. val C-Box is up! hehes.. first to tag hor by the honeypieUEI ! LOLS~
honoured? =P had some reality - topics wif her..
after tat she threw me wif sth v.intresting! =D & tats sth i wan share wif peeps who are reading this..=)

1) After one date and/or kiss she claims to be in love with him, and that she is so happy fate has finally drawn her to The One. Goes to great lengths to save the ticket stubs from anything you do together, movies, concerts....even the receipts of the meals you eat together.
2) She will only date an ugly guy. When asked to describe her guy, she will always begin with 'he has a great smile'. She does this out of painful insecurity, believing that an ugly will never cheat as he won't get the chance. She is on a one way ticket to Mediocrity.

3) She has a very unclear dating past, and her group of friends consists almost entirley of short spikey haired, b00b binding, graphic designers. Seems unsure of what to do with the male 'equipment' at first, and her uncertainty and fascination somewhat resembles Christopher Columbus discovering the Americas for the first time.

4) She is perfectly happy to exchange love and excitement in life for money and security. This explains the 'ugly old bald white guy with hottie' syndrome. Lives in a different suburb of Mediocrity.

5) She thinks so pessimistically about relationships that she never gets involved, because she imagines the negative scenarios (breaking up, getting hurt) rather than the positive possibilites (being happy, having fun). Owns many cats, and can quote '$ex and the City' of by heart.

6) She has never been without a boyfriend. She has had 7 boyfriends, all for no shorter than 2 years, and she is only 23! There is usually a period of no longer than 36 hours between breaking up with last guy, and getting together with new guy. Like a monkey, she never lets go of one branch till she has a hand on another.
7) She is a good natured girl, with many close guy friends, but is incredibly shocked every single time it is revealed that the guy friend who has driven her anywhere she ever wanted to go, who threw her the surprise party every single birthday, who cancelled his own vacation just so he could bring her soup when she had the flu, has actually been totally in love with her for years. She puts the I in NAIVE.

8) She is not available when you ask her out on a date because she has a boyfriend. Who lives in Bulgaria. Who she has never met in person, but who she MSN's with every night. The fact that they may never meet, and that he might not even be the person/age/photo he says he is fails to dampen her belief that this is a totally committed fully functioning relationship. Is skilled at Warcraft.

im nt being a copy cat ar val.. but its sth nice to share =)
i actualli took 4 trys to figure out wad type of girl actualli val is..
im so sry to dissapoint u =(((
but cheer up ! rmb my guarrente pressie.. =))
girls reading this shld figure out wad type of girls they are ! =D

weehong and the others didnt meet up to watch 300 2day.. another dissapointment..=//
went off ard 6pm+ for 2.4km run again.. err but this time the route is longer. x.x
cos dono who burn stuffs in one of my pathways.. i had to run extra longer to reach the canal..
argh! pants'' pants'' =S.. i have couple of times my leg signalling to stop.. =/
but in my mind.. i will do it i will do it..! thinking of my future.. >_<
and i did it ! =D approximate 300~400metres longer.. =//

this time round my legs wasnt as painful as ytd.. all thx to tat counterpain relief cream..
wootz! it was drizzling when i gt home.. so didnt play bbal..well i dont have strength to play either
was totally wore out.. so double yays! =D
login to maple & my dear zhizhijie reaching lvl 150.. so i helped him by organizing guild anego..
fun dieing over & over again.. grats zhizhi jie lvl 150 =DD

getting hair cut 2ml.. dun wan the V-cut ler.. GOOD BOY HERE =D..
lols me so BHB.. val nerdify me pls..=) ok nerdify is gettin popular..
2.6km agains?.. i wanna try tat extra distance agains.. =x
its getting late!
tatas xD

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; together we can turn dissapointments into hopes =))

O_O

2007-03-09T06:54:00.000-08:00

woke up late 2day.. was late for training.. =/
after tat was rotting @ home.. i keep telling myself to engaged into games..=))
well was planning wif wee hong go JP watch movie de.. but he claims no $ =/
ok we will wait this sun for 300 =D
after tat we planned to GG JP walk ard.. den play bball..
i went to slp since still early...v.tired..
but i overslept! -.- when i woke up.. i was like omg omg.. die liao.. gonna be late..
i search for my hp and to my surprise..
wee hong sms.. i dun wan go jp liao.. ltr gt play bbal call me..
LOLS! a sign of relief.. =))
ok meet uo wif him ltr @ 6pm+ play bbal @ west spring.. meet up wif yoyo ltrs..
and play team matches till ard 10pm+..
some of the opponent rough sia -.-
bth this kinda player use size & strength cut in de -.-
well i figure out sth.. 2 yrs + nv play.. realli fall behind alot lar..
need to work even harder =// so bbal peeps wait ah.. lemme me catcha guys back =))
ok my hair v.long ler.. need to gg hair cut..
nt dying i guess.. but may be getting myself a V-CUT & the back.. its cool..!
rite? dun mistake it as beng -.-

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; sometimes i wished it was you.. =//

keep holdin on**

2007-03-08T07:55:00.000-08:00

ok i gt to admit these 2 days sux.. no appetite no mood wadso ever..
my head is exploding lars.. decideding of de courses.. argh! headaches..!
i run couple of errands.. call up frends after frends.. msn dicussing..
honestly speaking i feel dam tired.. times i realli wanna doze off..
and times i wonder y.. i could have studied earlier..=/ i could have work harder..=/

there's nothing u can say.. theres nothing u can do..
theres no other way when it comes to the truth..
so keep holding on..
cos you noe we'll make it through..
make it through..
(AVRIL LAVIGNE - KEEP HOLDING ON)

i still have to face the fact.. and this is so true & so real..
so im juz maintain as postive i can.. =)
i eventually decided to have my 1st appeal chioce as multimedia & infocom technology..
thought its @ NYP.. i calculated it would be a roughly 1hr time of travelling..
yea 1 hr there 1 hr back.. tiring.. and i noe.. PSP & MP3 will come in handy =)
ok the course is obviously better..
it branches out into alot of sectors.. 4 i suppose..media & mobile & IT & etc etc ~
im goona find wad realli intrest me in de 1st yr..
and pick de one i love & do well in it.. =)
i noe the time its tight.. i wouldnt have time to rest or pant.. or even bgr..
well its nt tat busy anws.. cos my frend in nyp shared wif me his time table..
unless im having cca.. den it will be a differnt story..

i had mobile business solution as 2nd.. and im pretty sure i aint gonna qualify in it..
so its gone case lars =)
so if no NYP.. means im mechanical engineering..
and if tats the case.. i would have to work hard.. get to uni.. maintain good GPA..
the $ will be good though.. but its all hard work first..
one day i could be siting in de office though.. who noes.. work hard work hard! x.x

to those who helped me in the past 2days..
i sincerly thank you for yr time.. & would love to express my graduatitue some day..
juz name it.. & if i can i will be there =)
thx guys! =D

meanwhile.. there still aint time for relax.. more things to be done this mth!

- getting my lappy repaired & reformated*
- try to nego wif parents about getting new lappy*
- figure out wads the notebook price ranging & age limit to pay by installemts
- 2.4km run everyday
- 3 swimmings per week
- 1 gym lessons per week
- mp3
- hp
- poly clothers
- poly pants
- final 2 doc appt.

the list goes on & on~ =))
too tired to continue =))
grats to those who made it their courses.. those who didnt i will pray for u guys too in ur appeals ^^
tatas~ xD

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; a moment on the lips.. forever on the hips.. =))

O lvl post..

2007-03-06T06:07:00.000-08:00

blows after blows.. i cant take it anymore lars..
o lvl result out.. i gt posted to course i dun wan again.. another upsets AGAINS!
is this fated? or is this retribution? im a free thinker for a long time..
o lvl was expecting 15~ 18 came out 21.. the courses will nt much but i gt through that..
some how mobile buisness solutions conviced me.. 21 points sames as my COP..
was extremely looking 4ward getting it.. i have 2 ex-hkss students in it too..
i had it my first chioces.. and barely cared about the rest 11 chioces..

and guess wad.. i gt into MECHANICAL ENGINEERING..
wtf? this totally spoils my mood.. i was dam fustrated.. and somehow feeling helpless..
msn was flooding me wif where i go.. it was so irratating to say sth i nv intrested to get in to..
over & over again.. i bother my frend to woke up.. pei me go NP appeal.. thx wee hong =))

reach there by 10+ , the place wasnt packed.. i check de scoreboard.. MOBILE BUSINESS SOLUTIONS
has gone up by 1 POINT! COP 20.. and becuz of tat one fking point.. im unable to appeal for it..
i stood there dumbfounded.. asking different counsellers.. will i have have the chance..
and as usual.. ''SO SORRY , IT OVER''

my heart literally sank.. i stood there.. looking.. trying to paint the extreme picture.. of everthing..
dozen of things flow in & it of my brain.. am i suey or wad.. isnt appeal for a better course.. close to the COP?
well they say '' NV REACH COP.. NO TALK ''
i have no idea..whats the point of having this word ''appeal'' is in the dictionary..

the courses there.. onli 5 in NP is eligible for me.. & the courses are bullshit.. NP even worst..
RP was nv in mind.. NYP wad dam far.. tell me about it about TP..
this is de worst case senario in my life.. im so freaking helpess.. im so sry wee hong have to see me like this..
sry bro.. bare wif me..=/

went home.. everything seems so dead.. i linger ard my room & living room.. lieing ard & thinking..
so zz.. so zz.. my mom tried to encourage me.. but.. i cannot take it lars..mommy made de effort of running to my neighbour.. surprised* cos my neighbour was ex-hkss teacher.. so i meet her after dinner *
and she discuss wif me de routes.. after chatting i figure some stuffs out..

-i have 3 choices to post my appeal courses..
-mobile business solution is out.. cos those wif better COP will obviously take my spot..
-mechtronics egineering wil be my one last shot.. cos it have stuffs tat intrest me..
-muz rmb to register.. through tat 15 march post
-release of appeal is 13 march..
-i can choose to retake subjects.. for better.. take this yr as a experience..opt for better course nxt yr..
-or i can juz take de route.. all the way through.. make a living out of it.. work hard..

today mood is totally ruined.. this is hypocrtical bullshit..
im gonna take de risk.. believe god.. once again.. let me into mechatronics enginerring..pls..

i juz wanna go to the beach.. scream my lungs out.. cry it out.. let it go..

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; where were you when i need you the most..?

melancholically feelting thoughts..

2007-03-05T06:43:00.000-08:00

sun burn still aint fully recovered.. was very tired la..
woke for in de morning.. den had breakfast.. play abit aud..
den after tat fallen aslp till 3pm+.. after tat played maple x.x
still own buddy 65m ~ =//

caught up wif tv abit.. 8pm show was awesome.. talking bad on ppl..
ON TV SOMEMORE.. woohoo.. love their expressions.. & funny comments.. xD
had roasted duck for dinner! xD fattening food lars =/
need to watch out for diet agains =//
9pm show was last episode.. aww.. i onli watch abit.. lols~
was trying back starcraft.. ok dun laugh okies.. though its an old game..
i still find it hard w/o playin cheats =/

looking 4ward for recovery.. swimming.. shopping.. movie.. bag.. hp.. mp3..
the list goes on & on~ xD
tatas~

BaBy Can't you feel that i love you?
dont u feel anything when im showering u all my loves?
im so glad everytime u nudge me or sms me..
it juz brightens me up.. =)
but sometimes i realli wonder.. that i shld'nt have love you?
BaBy dun take my love for granted..
cos i'll say it to you & mean it..
nt say it cos i can =))
you are the closest to heaven than i'll ever be..=))

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; melancholically fleeting thoughts.. on this tragedy night..

zz

2007-03-04T07:23:00.000-08:00

went to play bbal wif the usual peeps from 10am ~ 6pm
too long ler la.. it was fun though.. but it came wif a price..
i kana sun burn T.T KNS! the weather was totalli sux lor..
'' she meh gui tian qi~ ! '' 4pm+ ~ 6pm+
rain abit & stop .. den rain abit den stop again .. =//
KNS la~ saw cc & paul 2day.. they both are indeed good players..
there was one mysteryman appeared..
was ard 180+ cm , nt sg i suppose play wif us.. dam zhun & body dam fit..
he become de star within few minutes..! plus he can dunk! lols
envy lars.. of cos.. well theres still room for improvement for me..
and i wun give up.. =D one day i will shine juz like them.. besides im young ;D rite?
skip my lunch though =x

ok reach home @ 6pm + had steamboat wif parents..
the food was much lesser compared de steam boat i had 2 weeks ago..
cos the ingredients were last miutes.. luckyily i drank too much water..
so my appetite become small.. so i was easily fulled =D
ltr we had '' yu shen '' , 1 yr eat one time le..
ok i gt to admit.. it taste great! =D

well time for me too go..having dry eyes =//
sun burn .. T.T
tatas~ xD

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; i just gotta say it all.. before i go.. just so you know

funny day!

2007-03-03T06:58:00.000-08:00

suppose to play bbal @ hke 2day.. but a funny thing happen..
wasa wearing my bbal shoe half way.. den suddenly.. leg stretch to much!
den cramp! >_< eventualli nv go =//

spent my whole day roting =//
play maple anws.. lols..
watching tv & cleaning my room

looking 4ward for 2ml bbal..
hope dun cramp again =x

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; am i realli unappreciated? taking my love for granted baby.. =//

tired..

2007-03-02T06:45:00.000-08:00

ok finally went Queensway ler =D
got myself 2 tops 1 pants 1 slippers =D
de adidas slippers was dam awesome =))
but sadly i bring too little $..
i wanted to buy bag also =// BOOO =//

after reach hke @ 3pm..siting down for a while den rain ler =//
bad day =(( so decided to go JE gym till 4+
long time nv work out in gym.. realli zz =//
saw alot of hunks.. but wad for make ur muscle so big -.-
lols :O

after tat went to princess elizabeth bball court.. cos tats de onli court tat has shelter =//
saw a couple of ppl playing there.. gt one no.7 ming yi player.. si bei rough..
no sportmans player also.. cut in nv score & miss or cut unsucessfully.. say we foul him..
lame ass la.. u weak den say =)) some of de balls we nv foul him lor -.-

well eventuatlli after tat round me & weehong sat & chat.. cos still raining..
and we dun wan play wif no sports man player..
till 6+pm.. den went to opp. side of de court shoot.. den soon play 4 vs 4..
it was fun! =D i have de feeling of overcoming de fear of cuting throug ppl..
i juz keep in mind.. my '' QI SHI '' muz win opp. =D liddat i can control de game..
well it was awesome.. =) GOOD GAME.. after tat manage to make friends wif 2 yr 2 poly guys..
their bbal nt bad too =).. theres a up coming 3 vs 3 convrersed bbal tournament..
sadly cannot jio them cos they gt attachement =//

went to bukitbatok CC shoot abit.. den GG home ler.. mommy kpkb me on de fone =//
good day still ! =D gt new clothers / pants / slippers..=D
looking 4ward to 2ml again.. hehes =D
i wan unlimited cash FLOW =DD =x

juz may'b s0meday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; your the first & last thing on my mind =)

ZZZ

2007-02-28T06:03:00.000-08:00

overslept 2day.. woke up @ 11am.. decided to skip my trainings =P
used up 70k cash of my 80k cash..changed AuD & restored my maple clothers..
okies waste of $..=//

was looking 4ward to play bbal in de evening..but it started raining till night..
haiis cannot play.. so 2day its like wastingmy time.. like did nothing 2day! =((
attended LOD & TRIX weddin @ 8.30pm.. GONGXI both.. wish u2 ''bai tou xie lao , zhao shen gui zi'' =P
GMBDonpao was also there.. he was too busy i guess.. i died earily in papu =//
pm he nv replied =// lols maple is boring =//

okies seriously wasting my whole day lar..cant wait for 2ml training..
looking 4ward for queensways shopping.. new bbal clothers & pants..new bag
also getting my MP3 & HP soon.. cant wait.. seriously cant wait.. =//

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
: a promise for the better =))

zzz

2007-02-27T06:58:00.000-08:00

wake up early 2day.. went for training as usual..
P1M2 ABC training was dam hard..=(
but it made it!.. ard 800+ sh0ts made.. 300 + scored.. hey hey nt bad =x

2day was dam pissed! cos i was training den this lady wif her baby cut acorss de court..
i din saw her actualli as i shoot the ball out.. it hit de rim and down the floor..
bounce back and hit the lady.. i immediately apologize.. but to my surpise..
she scould me.. say i no eyes.. in chi.. '' mei you yan jing'' ..
i was like wtf!? hey u cannot see theres ppl playing on de court? and u still purposely cut across?
say ppl no eye? i immeditedly KP her back despite her age.. well who cares?
''hey! nt i no eyes , is the ball no eyes ''
and guess wad! she scould me CB.. and blah blah.. it was a distance away..
if nt i sure KPKB back! RAWRS RAWRS!
after bath.. i reliase i gt sun burnt =// lols..

went home & rest f0r 30mins.. it was near 2pm.. went JE for appt.
it was awesone.. they realli can interect! =D

reach home about 4 plus.. i top up 80k cash =x hehes..but mostly proberly after tat wun buy ler..
cos i wana clear my buddy debt of 65m =( hahas..
well was browsing through youtube.. checking out stuff..
<3 kobe.. his awesome FADE AWAY =D.. learning it currently *

went down again having the idea to train shooting.. ran 4 basketball courts and finally found an empty spot..
train and reach homd ltr @ 9pm+.. as usual.. i have no apptite of eating dinner..
drank too much water earlier =/

looking 4ward for 2ml training again! =D
tatas x)

juz may'b s0meday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; ever wonder if it's all for you? =/

SO HARD!

2007-02-26T05:54:00.000-08:00

yay..2day manage to wake up early..
went for 1km run..but i seems like 10km..
i feel so old..pant like old man finding money on the ground..
have to work harder to build back my stamina..

went out at 10am+ to hke play bbal wif weehong , kenny , jm
woots! long time no see them le..its was fun chatting & sweating it out..
my legs showed signs of cram..so i decided to head home early then de rest..
and also i have a appt. @ 3pm..
by the time i reach home..i was dead beat alredi..
so i called them and shift my appt. to 2ml 2pm =x

relaxing at home aftert tat..din realli touch on maple or AUD..
dono y i keep thinking of bbal..=/ misses*
the link tat weehong sent me helps me to kill my time..
de vid was awesom.. zhi jie rox! hahas~

i figure out ltr.. that my bbal clothers are getting old & less trendy le..
meeting up wif weehong and hopefully the rest to queensway..
cant wait to shop for some new bbal stuff..!

i had troubles of drawing cute boy & girl figures.. can any 1 help me?
its sth important..so if ur good in drawing this kinda stuff..
or have pictures of them..pls send to me..or nudge me..

looking 4ward to 2ml training again..and 2pm appt. @ JE
tatas~ xD

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; the smallest thing i can do to show you my love..

MOST GD BBAL PLAYERS..GT AP..!

2007-02-25T05:57:00.000-08:00

omg la.. for 2 consecutive days.. i onli have 1 meal in for de entire day..
GG man.. am i having my diet de wrong way? =/
onli breakfast.. fruits for lunch.. nite onli water.. =x
ladies & gentle dun folo me ah..
nt every 1 gastric is as strong as mine..! =x ok im veri BHB..
guess i shld adjust my diet once again..=/

ok la 2day was kinda boring..maple is bringing me to slp..
aud cannot find my buddies de =(
luckyily my good friend had shoot me a question that help me kill my time..
ok shes celebrating her friend bdae..she came to me for ideas..
well im nt good in this either..cos i have nv celebrated bdae for any 1 be4..
or any 1 have celebrated for me...argh..feeling EMO to talk about this..! =(
well..she have de idea of celebrating @ marina bay steamboat..
and hit off de beach ltr..chatting..
however i figure out a problem..cos marina bay hot & humid =/
they may perspire..also..the cake may turns.. haha you know? =x
well..theres still a few days grace to figure out a better solution..!
so peeps reading this.. pls help to give me ideas!.. MSN or SMS ^^

a few games of AUD till 4pm+.. den it rain..wth...
waited for 2hrs..den finally the rain stop..
till 6.45pm the floor appears to be dry & saft enuff to play bbal again..
well..a couple of good games la..but den..i see de bbal players there..
dam AP..! so wad u pro or wad.. it doesnt mean every wan shld respect u..
fk to all those act PRO & AP ass ppl!
they din play serious.. all play like having screensave mode..
liddat dun play la.. i see also sian.. zz
HKS ring dam hard to shoot =(
i shld pratice more =D..

tats for 2day.. looking forward for 2ml training.. and FT @ JE @ 3.00pm ^^
tatas xD

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; let my sincerity prove you im the only one for you =)

injury again =/

2007-02-24T06:48:00.000-08:00

ok..i had a bad day 2day..
wanted to train this morning @ 7.00am..but..overslept..
woke up @ 9 plus..! crap!
well it happen cos i stay up late for survivor fiji =/
PAPA SMURF ROX..despite his spine injury..
he lead the team to victory in de imunity challege..cheers!
rocky is such an ass! talks like cowboy.. performs like jack-ass =/
well anw back to topic..
last night was kinda piss though..but nvm la..theres will be up's & down's in life..
no 1 is perfect though..so its ok..=D
well i deleted all my DOTA downloads.. ass man! my lousy lappy cannot connect to host!
RAWRR RAWRR..
val appeares to be on9 this morning and she trys to fix my LC problem..
of cos i cannot ''ku fu'' her help..
i dl everything back..though took loads of time..it ok! =D
we will somehow praying throughout the process..
as u guys noe..im sotong towards com..
so her job of helping me becomes more tedious =/
im so sry =/ she had to dl the stuff & send me cos my com aint aceept some dl parts..
hard work for her! =/
evutalli after hrs of help..its still doesnt work =(
the landcraft keep HOST LOOKUP CANCELED! BOOHOOHOO!
even though it din work.. im still happy.. for de hard work tat she had put in..
TO VAL : thx for everything 2day =) wif loves, weihong. ENJOY YA DOTA-ING
well i del everything after that =x
cos i dun wana take up any more of her time..
besides..im stoping to become a gamer again..theres gotta be more to life.. rite?
hehe.. ok i aud for like 1-2hrs.. it was dam laggy..
i wanted to bbal de..but de rain had drag the time till 5+ be4 i go down..
well i meet up wif YOYO to play bbal.. wel we chated about AUD though..
hahas..den ltr he start dragging me to CC play..nt i dun wan ok..
2yrs & 6 mths nv play bbal..ask me go CC..
ltr miss air ball..sure dam paisei.. T_T
well anw..he eventualli made me conviced*
we went CC..well theres was couple of familiar faces..
and lots of Question asked*
where were u? why so long nv come down..
i tot u die liao..? u maple siao..still mapling ah?
dam paisei la..OKOK im selling my acc okies* no more gamer ler..
well played 2-3 matches..which motivated me to work hard on bbal skills..
i have tons of brush up to do!
sth bad happen ltr..the ball was speeding across arms..which some how whack onto my last finger..
it made a snap..& soon it started swelling =(..my poor finger..injured =((
reach home @ 10pm..
CONCLUSION :
-gave up on dota since nt working
-selling my maple acc
-prays for my injured finger to recover asap =/
-play better bbal!

tired after everthing..staying postive! 2ml will be a better day

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
;you had me at hello :))

CNY!

2007-02-22T21:25:00.000-08:00

okies. have been neglecting my blog veri long.. mood swings lar. =/ dun blame me =x
well a couple of stuffs happen la.. which made me think alot..
yea.. and de regular FAQ for men are onli women & career..
so i will nt denied de fact.. my problems are both related =(

CAREER!
ok starting wif de career one.. O lvls result release!
congrats to those who made it & those did not.. but eventualli still can GG poly =/
no offence eh* hehe
i din did well okies.. it was way off my expectation =/
bringing up this topic makes me so zz lor..
was expecting 15 ~ 18 but it came out 21 T_T..
sux man..

my expression was so - so
but eventualli when i went home..i came to a conlusion..
WAN DAN LE LAR! WHERE AM I SUPPOSE TO GO ! WTF!
seriously i was panic.. and yes i regreted nt studying any better..
well who 2 blame..? it all lies on me ma..=//
anw i heck care for de first 2 days.. i din realli wana look at it..
and i onli have 6 days to summit my entries of 12 chioces..
as usual.. im blurr like sotong..
but luckily..my good frend NIKOS!.. came to rescue..
i eventualli run errands de nxt few days to his hse..
he asnwered my FAQ and gave me guidance to courses i shld pick..
TO NIKOS : if ur reading this! THANKS MAN 4 EVERYTHING ^^

ok i decided to have my 1st chioce as dip. in mobile buisness solution.
despite last yr cop was same as my score.. i din wana risk any chances of putting courses
that are above my points..
firstly.. what if i failed.. who will help me & guide me in de future..
secondly.. if i end up wif no job.. how in de hell am i gonna support my parents..
thirdly.. i dun have much frends actualli.. so when problems comes in poly who to run?

haiis alot of problems actualli..dip. in mobile business solutions was my best choice..
y?
cos firstly.. it has attachement to companies in yr 3..if perform well..i dun need to be scare
for my future..my family..my career..
secondly.. i have 2 friends ex-hkss in that course..and one of them is my god-sis..
im sure she will help if i have any problems.. rite? =D
career assure.. family supported.. friends help.. theres nth more i can ask..=)
well i juz hope i get into de course =D

LOVE!
love is in the air.. woot! happy valentine to every peeps whos reading this! :D horray!
i celebrated my 17th valentine as usual..ALONE =/
ok nth to be sad.. rite?
well its juz i dun have de courage to face LOVE..
nt i dun wan too.. but i juz cant seem to have courage towards this kinda stuff..
yes i have a girl in mind.. but wif my current ME.. its totalli CMI la..
and dun encourage me pls.. im nt rdy for relationship yet..
hehes.. so meanwhile i juz gonna upgrade my self.. make my self better..
and when that day comes.. i will learn to be a good bf..
till den.. i will silently watch her back* as her guardian angel*
those reading this ''BU YAO LAUGH'' PLS.. im blushing alreadi! =x

HAPPY CNY!:D
okies.. CNY has been a awesom this yr..
10yrs! 10 yrs i have nv visited my hometown for new yr..
hahas..departed from SG on 17feb & landed 18feb at kedeh..
well its cheers from day 18 to day 22..
y le? cos..
1) gt $350 sgd & 520RM this yr for angbaos! 1st yay!
2) won 140RM in gamblings =DD double yay!
3) declicious food from 18~ 22 =D triple yay!

but on de other side
1) lose of blood due to mosquitoes bite =( 1st T_T
2) weather was freaking HOT! =(( double T_T
3) my arm had a slight burnt while playing fire works =(( triple T_T

so..i actualli dono i shld be happy or not? =/
of cos happy la..cos those con-s were nth! im strong ! =x
well now wif the $$ wif + my own savings..
hehe.. shopping spring! HP & MP3.. WOOT =D finally YAY !
me staying positive now.. 2ml will be better ^^
TATAS~ xD

juz may 'b someday..i would be good enuff for you

; you make me feel complete =D

2007-01-03T04:42:00.000-08:00

realli has been quite long bo update liao~ T_T
de past 3 weeks...zomg..how to squeeze into 1 post..=/
impossible..well anw.. i shall recall bit by bit..=)

went started my self training 2day
its was hell..my lag felt like lead..=(
i noticed tat my old back injury have show signs of weakening me..
shld i head for op? =x
well its was still ok..i run ard..=/
shot about 100 3-pointers..my hands like jelly >.<
so i decided..heading back home was de best choice..

due to de stupid server check.
i decided to engaged into frozen throne once again =/
always being defeated me finally won computer once >.<
so hard=/ undead rox! ^^

went to maple ltr gg bain to earn mesos..ya boring =/
well i had a busy buddy chats..but some how..
i tried to get myself into de converstaion..but..
as usual..kana dao =.=
haiz..juz hope i get more attention from them..

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for u...=/

: you're the answer.

blur*

2006-12-13T02:53:00.000-08:00

O_O